My Fetty Detox
A gutsy move to say the least,
A desperate reach to say the most.
There's nothing I can say right now,
If I'm to meet my greatest ghost.
This feeling of the ending near,
Yet I can't seem to lift my hand.
My pores secreting this iced fire,
How was this ever what God had planned?
Sinister music heard in the background,
As I involuntarily thrash about.
Nothing can compare exactly
To this hell I'm in and without.
My brain feels liquefied by acid,
I'm unable to control my being.
It all feels it will leak from me,
If I then call it as I'm seeing.
True love I know has suffered this,
And will one day suffer again.
If only I could take this suffering,
I now wonder who suffers then?
I feel my God abandoned me,
And I pray incessantly for Jesus.
Is this what's in store for all,
Who take part in sins that please us?
As the next day finally dawned,
The tremors finally started ceasing.
The peace I finally succumbed to,
Was the last of this chemicals releasing.
My love for life with her returned,
And I get another chance to please her.
With this brand new life I find in me,
What it is exactly that lovingly sees her.
My heart's yearning is finally sated,
Along with it's all consuming desire.
The cleansing of the both of them,
Will make even me reach higher.
I lost everyone and everything,
I risked what no one ever would.
I knew my Father had not forsaken me,
With a new timeline with Heatherwood.
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Scottie Jackson
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