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Ejecting the Monologue
I love how twilight transforms
My curtains currently are an art work
Of light, shade and mystery
Where the growing light creeps in
Producing patterns and pictures
Giving places unnoticed previously
The limelight, a moment in time
Imperfections add character
Ever changing as I observe
That tiny patch of wallpaper
I hyper focus on
To check if there's anything I've missed
It's not always about honing in
When stepping back reveals more
The complete picture
So much clearer when not
Too close
Maybe I'm alright too
If I crawl into the recesses of my mind
It's all a bit pixelated and I need to step back
I might step off the stage for a bit
Maybe read my reviews
I dived into the friends Whataspp last night
Threw my heart into a deep chat
My friends responses to my angle on the situation with no up sides was a joy to see "you have a wonderful way with words..." & "you always know just what to say"
It would be amazing if I did that to myself
I can solution like nobody's business, little miss fix it, adjust perception, accept it, project past it, figure it out x 10 - yet I sit with an unformed question stuck in limbo with myself
Another great thing about lighting... the mirror confirmed my cheekbones haven't actually disappeared like a bad photo suggested
The best and the worst can sometimes be a trick of the light
An extreme close-up
Or the wrongly worded question
What do I want today?
To stop doing my own head in...
Am I doing my own head in?
Slightly but I've actually squished up and decided not to deal with some big stuff and told myself I have no right to feel bad when I know for a fact if I shared this no one would say it's a pull your socks up situation
Am I dealing with it today?
Obviously not, I'm really busy not thinking about it
Can I put it in the bin?
No, it's doing my head in
What is the answer?
Thinking space, joy, black forest gateau
Ok try that
I'm too lazy to pick up the cake
Forget the cake and eat fruit
I'm too lazy to walk into the next room
Treat that as hurdle number 1
Ok
What is this?
It's either wisdom or a crazy rant
Maybe it's both?
I can't remember which of these voices is the wise one?
It's me, go and eat a satsuma and perk up
Righto.
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