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My Mental Health In Critical Condition
My head spinning ... on these white walls ... My mental health in critical condition ... trying to remember who I am why I am here Trying to escape from this mental hospital .Doctors asking me my name... I can't answer them.....Hearing voices in my head, Seeing Shadows everywhere telling me to stop ... Running ... I can't, it's too late !!! ... the pain in my soul , already pierce my bones.
I got lost in the dark ..
I Take the wrong way..
I lost faith and hope.
My soul seems to be a the wrong person's body
I'm in the SECLUSION ROOM Tied from my hands and feet i don't understand why I feel a shame , and hopeless Trying with all my heart and soul..to get up But I can't im mentality drained and fiscally my body is letting go ... My memories fading far away ... This place is destroying the person that I was ..
My face is reflected in the mirror ...
My voice with so much sadness and fear to say anything ..
I look at myself again in the mirror don't know that person is a stranger to me.. I look at myself in the mirror again and I only look at the damage that I cause myself all the bad choices . Tiers running down my face getting so Emotional looking around me seeing
Myself in there with all the patients that have been traumatized and torched by the system. ,
God forgive me if I wish my death ..
God forgive me for trying against my life ..
The pain overcomes ...im not strong anymore I don't know who I am I don't know who is the person in the mirror. .. I want to be seduce under the effect of the analgesia. So the memories and pain fade into oblivion and ... Loneliness
ARILENE H..
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Arilene Holguin
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