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The Walls Within
My mind is bewildered with strife
All my life, it cuts me like a knife
I'm sorry that I've given in to grief
These desires within never gave me relief
These voices in my head, once again,
Reduce me to utter dread and then,
I'm seduced by lies and abominable passions
Pour forth your compassions upon my mind of distractions
I'm attracted to the evilness and the malicious thrill within
These tall walls are caving in on me through thick and thin
I'm coveting change in my life, coveting regretless times
I'm jubilant in my pain and strife...haunted by the bell chimes
Divorce remorse in my mindset and abort abhorred lullabies
Don't give in to the captivity within these walls...you ignored my cries
I'm sorry I have to let go and let live now...somehow,
I've lost it all when I broke God's vital, vivacious vow
Something in me dies and what's been low has been seeking highs
How time surely flies when you bid your goodbyes...your wicked farewells and your atrocious sighs
I've become someone hideous and so disgraceful inside, I won't lie
Right now, I'm willing to swallow my pride and let humility never dry
Obedience and gratitude is close to my grasp and I need to hold on to good morals
Rebelliousness and bad attitude made me relapse inside times a ton within these walls
Profound poverty has fallen upon me and I pray for wealth spiritually
I'm apologetic for the wrongs I've done, so I want to set my spirits free
I want to be positively happy, is that too hard to ask?
Yes, I bask in yesterday's dismay and tomorrow's sorrow
I want to be optimistic at last - is that too hard of a task?
No, it's possible to do the impossible with His love to borrow
I cry for Your mercy and forgiveness of all the wrongs I've done
I denied the lies of my youth and the truth is...the war is left unwon
I repent of all the sinning I have succumbed to in my foolish decision-making
I want wisdom and understanding and I pray away the aftermath of misery-aching
I want Love above all
Hear me as I truly call
Upon the Lord of Accord and look forward to His awesome Kingdom
Within these walls, hatred is aboard...I'm abhorred to the core and I hoarded this doubt out of boredom
Freedom is far from my reach
But, God teaches me to beseech
His narrow pathway
And His life-giving way -
There's relief beyond the grief, even if it's somewhat brief
The walls within break before my eyes
I've been crying for His Word to save me beyond belief
At least I seek the truth beneath the lies
His love is everlasting -
So unconditionally amazing!
The walls within and my past sins
Break apart as God's life begins...
Happiness and hope endures and wins
Inside our minds and hearts in all aspects of life
My mind is no longer bewildered with awful strife!
Copyright ©
J.W. Earnings
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