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Left It's Scars Adult Content
Dealing with child abuse is never easy, or straight forward
in my own case ,I was abused for over 6 years,
physically and mentally.
my mum left when I was 7,
she could not take any more abuse from dad,
dad turned on me soon after....
I often went to school black and blue ,
from my shoulders to the backs of my knees.
HOW COME NO-ONE REPORTED HIM ?
he nearly suceed'ed in killing me !
(pushed overboard from his small boat ,
into the North Sea).
In my very early teens,
I had to run for my life...
I became a cutter.
trying to "bleed the bad out".
I had convinced myself that mum's leaving
and dad's abuse was all my fault;
poor deluded child.
Till one day , I went too deep and got a vein...
The hospital repaired it with what I call plastic vein.
It stopped me trying to "bleed the bad out".
The hospital's psychiatrist convinced me
that my parents were not MY fault.
Healing is still a work in progress for me,
I will get there with my sisters help.
(they were much stronger ,and healed quicker).
Sadly,
It left It's scars.
Elizabeth alexander 20/3/2016
my thanks to Shaunda and Gizella for saving me.
Copyright ©
Elizabeth Alexander
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