Every day when I wake up in the morning
I promise myself that today will be different and I’ll change
So that I’ll be able to finally sleep without my head hurting
From replaying these lucid agonizing moments relentlessly
When all I could do is please, support and trust people
While they are constantly stepping on me to move forward
And I just can’t say no to them, it took me a while to realize
That when you let people take advantage of you, they’ll never stop
I’m always deceived by the typical two-faced people
Prioritizing their feelings and their impression about me
While neglecting myself, feeling bad and the urge to be kinder
But at the end of the day, I’m the one who keeps losing to people who didn’t even try.
Categories:
pleaser, anxiety, blue, devotion, emotions,
Form: Free verse
I'm sorry if ever I forgot to laugh
Laugh at all those jokes you made on me,
all those times you made me realise
That I can never say 'no' to those eyes.
I don't remember if I forgot to notice
Everything you did to me,
I could have been
a bit more grateful
You deserved
Much more of that 'thank you'...
I'm so sorry ,
sorry again
For apologising too much.
Don't want to bother you
Keep that smile intact, please,
I don't want it to falter because of me
Oh! did you say 'please'?
Please don't ,
the word's meant for people like me
Sorry again if I am being stupid
Just curious if anyone else
is trying to fit in..
I'm sorry,but,are you fine?
Do you want me to compliment you all the time?
It's been a little hard for me, but nevermind
Just want to make sure you are okay
Cause' who cares about me anyway?
Make sure you know
You'll always have me
Even though, I never had myself
Sorry, if I am saying it loudly
I'll whisper
Even though nobody whispered to me.
I'm sorry if ever I made you
Anxious..worried...
I'm sorry if ever I forgot to bleed
When you stabbed me
I think , I wonder
If I deserved it...
Categories:
pleaser, allegory, anxiety, growing up,
Form: Free verse
Melt me across a sidewalk and walk all over me.
I hope I at least smooth out the cracks.
I hope one less person trips over because of me.
Crave away my flaws and make me into the most beautiful sculpture.
I hope no one sees my shavings.
I hope you look at me in awe.
Burn me when you want and watch me crumble over time.
I hope I can be bright enough for you.
I hope I don’t hurt anyone.
Tear me down and replace me.
I hope I didn’t do anything wrong.
I hope I was useful to you
Categories:
pleaser, anxiety, emotions, feelings, hate,
Form: Free verse
The onions, bathed in sauté
— s i z z l i n g aroma.
Tanglement of tomatoes,
spiked with red vino,
Italian meatballs,
spaghetti —
Slurp!
1/13/2019
Categories:
pleaser, food,
Form: Epulaeryu
Writing poems is just what I did realize;
Will be all part of a mind exercise;
Words together will start linking;
Makes you begin to start thinking.
It also really is a quite nice activity
Ending up producing word subjectivity
And another thing I am starting to find
Is strengthens and broadens your mind.
Of life, has to do with each station
And will try to establish a correlation
Of the things you are writing about
And take, which one will be the route.
To my mind, comes one more confession
Hope is not part of a obsessive-compulsive obsession;
After having heard each word and its sound
With your mind will start playing around.
Both your teeth and mouth will chatter
And you spring up to see what is the matter
And for find out what had been hard fought
To start an interest and create a thought.
In essence, I hope you are prepared for this one
And all of the very things that I have done
Which is trying Poetry Soup to be promoting
While my mind and time have been devoting.
Categories:
pleaser, philosophy,
Form: Couplet
Burned out and stressed out.
Cant please you All.
What about me and how I feel? What about my health both mental and physical?
Im stuck in the middle and stuck in a rut.
Why dont you stop calling and interferring?
I cant please you All
Burned out and stressed out.
From now on im gonna say NO.
Categories:
pleaser, family, health, life,
Form: Epic
What can I do for you today?
I am your slave
I take whatever you give me
For I am so desperate for your attention
I long for the embrace of Satan
Instead of seeking God's gentle touch
I am left empty time after time
But, cannot stop myself from entering your lair again
My emotions are of no concern to you
They are drastic in range
From estatic to despondent
No one to confide in
Not a friend in the world
Totally and utterly alone for life
Trapped inside myself
Categories:
pleaser, girlfriend-boyfriend, husband, life, loss,
Form: Free verse