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Fates Choices:
Part one:
Pushing my life into fates hands,
Causes my mind to worry with fear,
Wondering what is,
And what will become,
As a result, my life is in shambles.
Now, as I lay here thinking,
I realize that fate isn't helping,
I'm being slowly dragged down,
Down the familiar black river,
The one I know all too well.
I've thrown myself into it many times before,
This time, fate brought me here,
Is this where I'm supposed to be,
Swimming in the deep waters of pain,
Drowning from all the hurt and worries?
Fated seemed to be a golden door,
An exit from reality,
It was supposed to be my life the way it should be,
Either fate is a lie,
Or I am doomed to be trapped in cold dark waters.
Part two:
A person steps to the cold muddy bank,
And extends a hand to pull me out,
He is kind and caring,
He pulls me into the sunlight,
Perhaps fate isn't so bad,
I feel warmth and happiness,
I'm surrounded by light and hope,
In my mind,
All is well.
I've allowed myself to feel again,
I'm happy and letting others in my life,
The man who saved me,
Treats me better than anyone in my life has treated me,
My strong bonds of friendship tighten,
This is all too good to be true.
Part three:
My skin begin to itch,
My body sweating,
I am ignorant to what is happening,
As I'm enjoying this new,
And forgetting the old,
I've begun to burn,
The suns heat is pounding my skin,
Seeping inside me and drying my soul,
I am careless and happy,
Other's can see,
They yell to me that my skin is melting,
My own life fading before their eyes.
As I'm having a sudden epiphany,
I hear a slow laugh break out,
It becomes louder,
Deeper,
Before I can see who it is coming from,
I'm lifted into the air,
The man who saved me,
Laughs as he throws me back into my murky beginning.
As I drift to the bottom,
Struggling to move my useless limbs,
I catch a glimpse of the man,
As he turns from the river,
I close my eyes,
And prepare to die.
The End
Shane Bennett
Form:
My name is Kalie Jo-Ann Stevenson & I'm grateful to be alive. As I sit on this cold piece
of metal, they call a bed, I cry so many tears for I'm torn, hurt, betrayed & losing my
only mind I've ever had. This feeling of hurt is so strong. Overwhelming. I look behind
me & see a window only 3 inches wide. You can't see out of it. I look around me & all I
see is these 4 walls closing in on me. Suffocating. A sink with no handles, a toilet to be
shared by your cell mate. No privacy. Only Insanity. How does one survive this? How do
you keep from going insane? All you can do it think or sleep. Even then, you can't sleep
because your mind is racing a million miles an hour. I want to escape. I've been
wrongfully incarcerated. I'm the Victim. I don't belong in a cage like this..I feel like a
caged animal with no future of being free of this, free from the hurts inside, free to be
my own person, free to just be ME. I feel like I have no control over my life. As if
someone is using me as a puppet; pulling & ripping my strings left & right.. I hear
screaming & try to block it out. People have lost their minds. The screams & cries are so
piercing to your ears that it seems as though, all the screams & tears are from yourself,
but they're not. You'd like to do the same but if you do, you shall be punished for it. Life
is not Free. Life is not your own. People, government; they control your life, without
even the slightest chance to let you speak on your behalf. What happen to freedom of
speech? I miss my man & my daughter.. I'm crying uncontrollably.. Why me? My entire
life, I've struggled to stay alive & for what? To be kicked to the curb every time I finally
let someone in? To continue my Life being mistreated, used & thrown away as if I have
no feelings? Am I ever going to catch a break? I want all this to be over but it shall
continue, at least another week or so..Then I shall be sentenced..
Form:
I have fallen into the depts.,
Crumbling only on the inside,
Shaking in desperation,
My life was always a lie,
I can no longer hear their voices,
Or what they have to say,
They simply look at me,
And I’m pushed away,
Blown back into their world,
Where no one understands me,
I stare into my eyes,
Trying to set my soul free,
The reflection can do nothing but stare back,
And mock my silent screams,
And display a reflection,
Of a girl trying to be me,
But is she all I have left?
My worst enemy,
The one who can tell me everything I do and don’t want to hear,
A sad soul is all I see reflecting,
A soul that shakes with every beat,
From a heart that lives on every breath,
Of a girl who cries at the thought,
That the purpose of her life is death,
It seems that at the end of the day,
We want our heart to have the loudest beat,
But with our hearts working so hard,
Our souls become weak,
They always say to follow your heart,
But life has other things on its shelf,
Things so incredible,
They are just as good as love itself,
Life is a struggle to find happiness,
To please our living reflection,
Sometimes we smile in the mirror,
But more often look the other direction,
I stare into my eyes,
But there is nothing to see,
It seems this reflection is all I have left,
But sometimes even it, leaves me,
I have fallen into the depts.,
With another one of their lies,
Shaking in desperation,
Don’t let another part of me die,
Life is a struggle to find happiness,
To find our every dream,
But when I stare into my eyes,
I find none in me,
When I stare into my eyes,
I come across a block,
I find a soul who wants to live,
And a heart that wants to stop,
Life is a struggle to live,
And I find my only protection,
Exists in the most complicated of images,
My very own reflection
-Keep blowing all my money
looking for happiness
It's kinda sad how lifes filled
with all of this
******** and pain, man the shits
insane
Rather take 60 bullets straight
to the brain.
Who would care, another dies
In my coffin my body lies
In my eyes though all could see
The pain that always haunted
me.
At night I would cry. But I cry
no more.
Not a single tear is wasted
upon my bedroom floor.
The worlds in my hands but am
I afraid to take it.
They say in life's we must take
risks. But I'm cornered by the
fact that I may not make it.
I want to make everyone proud
I want to please the world
I want to put faith in the hearts
of the suffering boys and girls
I need to get my priorities
straight but can't see through
all this fog.
I feel as if I'm in the middle of
a fight between dogs.
Im cornered and rushed but I
yearn for a touch.
I take and take. But it never
amounts to much.
I want to see the world. I want
to spend all my earnings.
But I'm stuck in a twirl of life's
unfavorable mornings
I sit and wait. The food grows
cold on my plate.
I don't care who sees. I'm a
bird set free
I can fly I can land but I'm goal
orientated.
I could die, change plans, but it
wont change. The progress
already created.
I'm so capable yet so foolish.
So young but yet so grown.
I have the volition to do this
But how can I make it alone.
They say that the greatest
mistakes in life save us from
repetition. But what about
those who never learn.
Is life one big competition .
Must we all wait for our turn.
Or do we suffer and burn.
Is life filled with complexities or
is it just my discrepancies that
keep me from understanding
life piece by piece.
-Keep blowing all my money
looking for happiness
It's kinda sad how lifes filled
with all of this
******** and pain, man the shits
insane
Rather take 60 bullets straight
to the brain.
Who would care, another dies
In my coffin my body lies
In my eyes though all could see
The pain that always haunted
me.
At night I would cry. But I cry
no more.
Not a single tear is wasted
upon my bedroom floor.
The worlds in my hands but am
I afraid to take it.
They say in life's we must take
risks. But I'm cornered by the
fact that I may not make it.
I want to make everyone proud
I want to please the world
I want to put faith in the hearts
of the suffering boys and girls
I need to get my priorities
straight but can't see through
all this fog.
I feel as if I'm in the middle of
a fight between dogs.
Im cornered and rushed but I
yearn for a touch.
I take and take. But it never
amounts to much.
I want to see the world. I want
to spend all my earnings.
But I'm stuck in a twirl of life's
unfavorable mornings
I sit and wait. The food grows
cold on my plate.
I don't care who sees. I'm a
bird set free
I can fly I can land but I'm goal
orientated.
I could die, change plans, but it
wont change. The progress
already created.
I'm so capable yet so foolish.
So young but yet so grown.
I have the volition to do this
But how can I make it alone.
They say that the greatest
mistakes in life save us from
repetition. But what about
those who never learn.
Is life one big competition .
Must we all wait for our turn.
Or do we suffer and burn.
Is life filled with complexities or
is it just my discrepancies that
keep me from understanding
life piece by piece.
This sickness is buried deep inside
Knowing now, that the torture has died.
Crying is a sign of weakness
Sending my existence into total meanness.
I feel tomorrow will be the same,
Always having to play the devils game.
I am scared to accept another person to get as close as you
But please look at me and tell me the torture is over.
I want to move on, and get on with life, a better life with sorrow,
Why should the most important things always wait for the morrow?
I used to sit here and weep, but nevermore.
I am going to live this life until my soul is gone, and my body hits the floor.
Why is it that my life now is stricken with this mark made of coal?
It won't leave, it continues deeper and deeper into this abyss, this hole.
How can love be so thoughtless, so cruel?
You did nothing to me, but yet I was your tool.
I noticed that I am not perfect, but I still won't give up, because life is extremely corrupt.
I have held my anger inside, beat it down, and mutilated it so as I would not have the chance
to erupt.
What is this that I am feeling? Sadness, hatred, maybe even pain?
But I try harder and harder feeling as if it was all in vain.
Late night, brakes lock, hear the tires squeal,
Red light, can't stop, so I spin the wheel,
My world goes black before I feel an Angel lift me up,
and I open bloodshot eyes, into florescent white,
Flip the siren, hit the lights, close the doors and I am gone.
Late night, brakes lock, hear the tires squeal,
Red light, can't stop, so I spin the wheel,
My world goes black before I feel an Angel steal me from the,
pain and extensive damages, giving me a second chance,
the artist in the artist in the ambulance.
Form:
My damn mind is drifting away
Trying to retain knowledge but it won’t stay
Need to walk thru my past and pick up the pieces
And try to fix those shattered dreams of my forgotten life
Hiding these emotions in the handle of this knife
And forcing myself to fix my broken emotions
Looking at all the collected tokens
The tokens from my accomplishments
And my many achievements
To see where I went wrong
Asking myself why I’m so headstrong
Looking in the mirror what do I see
My life and my libido consuming me
Too late to pick a new path
Because too many people tempted my wrath
People pushed me too far
Just so they could discover who they are
Pushed me once
Pushed me twice
Pushed me three times
Tell em to read between the lines
When people harass you what do you do
You show them who is boss and make them see you
Follow there actions and soon you will discover
That there once was cowards making them ponder
Leading them to follow there stupidity
They found a new path of unanimity
Looking in the mirror what do I see
My life and my libido consuming me
Too late to pick a new path
Because too many people tempted my wrath
People pushed me too far
Just so they could discover who they are
Follow your own advice and you will learn
That roads to enlightenment had very sharp turn
But soon they will straighten out and fork off
Then the difficult part proves its troth
Looking in the mirror what do I see
My life and my libido consuming me
Too late to pick a new path
Because too many people tempted my wrath
People pushed me too far
Just so they could discover who they are
Form:
MY LOWEST EBB
At my lowest ebb
Trapped within life’s web
The snares of life caught me off guard
And I am let to believe there is a god
The same god who is supposed to be my guard
My hands are burnt from the fire balls life throws at me
Void and empty like a vacuum
A black star within the constellations unreflective to sun rays
It’s all pitch black but my heart burns with emotions that enables
Me to dance to life’s rhythm and sing hymns of hope
And broaden my life scope
I am a man therefore I am supposed to cope not elope
I have been taken for a joke like a coke addict
Though for I know it’s a superficial verdict
Betrayed from my trusted precinct by plastic smiles
While I was at it, I will get past it
Their grin, green with envy as it overshadows my being
Life has walked on me like a door mat, but my rage remains dormant
Silent as the night, like a medieval knight I will conquer
This life
For I can see the light
I am bound by the virtue of right
I am so tired of being treated like a fool
i always hear you say that u want to leave
at times am just ready to say go am done
i left everything for you , and yet i get nothing.
Am just so tired of everything!!!
I get so sad i cry at times when i take a shower
i just sit there let the water run down my skin
think of the past and remember the good things
that happened to me i miss them so much!!!
I dont get to see my family if i even talk to my mom
i hear what did you tell her dont tell her about
our relationship !!! i get so tired of you my life is so
hard like living in the inferno !!! I wish i was back
in my own life to make my decisions not have a heartless
guy do it!
The only thing i want is just to be able to be myself
i hate having to pretend to do everything right i make
mistakes i want to say what i want when i want to
i just want to be me Cant u understand!!
My life wasnt all that perfect but back in the day i
had fun was able to be myself !! But i just want
respect someone to let me be me !!
why must you tell me what to do?? You dont
even trust me to go to the store by myself!!!!
i hate you at times but am just so hurt that life is
this way how did i let this happen !!
How do i change life as we know it ??? sometimes i
wish i was departured from you why do u tell me that
you say you dont even love your own son You
know how that makes me feel !!!?? You dont
because you dont care !!
It is like my soul has been taken-
And my smile, I am only faking-
People who think they know me,
sorry, you are sadly mistaken-
I look strong, act strong, but inside I am slowly breaking.-
My tears have multiplied-
All I have done is cried-
And once again I have fallen for another persons lies-
My storm is pouring and I ask, when will it dry?-
My pain has left me numb-
Sitting here feeling very dumb-
I once again look like a fool, all red in the face-
What was the point of him making my heart race?-
When now we are apart-
All he did was shatter my heart-
I am tired of peoples words-
Stop wasting your breath, its just up in the air, froze-
Everyone hated us together from the start-
But ultimately, he stole and broke my heart-
I defended him and always had his back-
Now I feel like we are at war, and I am ready to attack-
Sometimes I wish I could just go back-
Never in my life have I felt so alone-
Scars is all I have to show for being grown-
Sitting here writting and not feeling much-
Sick at the thought that I loved him so much-
I dont want a hug, I dont want to be touched-
I am all alone, thats no mystery-
My life and eyes are filled with misery-
I help everyone but cant seem to help myself-
I have given so much, there is nothing left-
I have lost way too much-
And whatever I do is never enough-
So I will just sit here-
Praying a miracle will come here.-
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