Long Apologising Poems

Hannah, could never remember a time when she wasn’t ill. The doctors had tried all sorts of stuff, and at times she had rallied. She was optimistic to begin with, but now she was just...

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Title 3/ Confluence Quote:  Forget injuries, never forget kindnesses. Confucius

In the poetic story of my life, 
I hesitate and ponder 'don't be so obvious,'
but whatever I am thinking - becomes a poem.

Sometimes life hurts, when lost upon crossroads of fate,
until those...

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I'm back after a bout of writers block, excuse me while I write with no hesitation
Because for the past month or so I've been in desperation 
Trying to find inspiration or an idea to write...

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My dear son,
                    It is morning, this is our new beginning of conversation
   ...

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Help! I can’t find sleep.

 

Tired eyes and aching limbs

A mind that seeks a rest,

It’s time to put my jarmies on

And don’t forget my vest!

 

As I switch off all the plugs

And check around of me,

Curiously I...

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Wealth brings many friends , but a poor man 's friend deserts him. 
Proverb 19:4

Who cares for you? 
When we separate with good people 
We feel to cry, 
        Remembering 
              The good times 
                        ...

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I am not apologizing for my sexual orientation
For loving what I want and not what society has dictated to me 
I am not apologizing for my white skin
If you think it is privilege then walk...

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Jody took an explicit anger rage
In London, at the 2012 Paralympics,
Which everyone knew about, did rage,
Threw his water bottles about, tactics. 

He wanted the technical delegate, ICU, 
To call the error a sad technical fault,...

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My throat feels like it closes 
As I didn't speak up
Like I didn't know my thoughts
I knew my wishes clearly
I'm in no doubt
But now I'm trapped
It can't be a step forward
If I feel enclosed
Like choices...

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When we met I was too broken from my childhood to have common sense 
You loved me more than I could comprehend 
I know this is 7 years too late so it's been far too...

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The bars of my self made prison tremble
My world begins to shake
Nothing is as it seems 
The cracks in the cage grow larger

I start to sink
Enveloped by the darkness
The light begins to dim
The darkness welcomes...

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The musician I never became
Singing the song I wish I wrote
I count the strands of my life
Here I am in a tag of war
Feelings of attraction
Versus stronger feelings of repulsion

Something happened and I responded
Because I...

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Apologising all the time is often an after-effect of trauma; a self-preservation technique survivors may think they still need to utilise in order to protect themselves. 

Everyone is healing from something. Let's try to be...

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I undisputedly agree,
For who can even disagree ??
That, you are life's biggest mystery..
Of which I try to get the mastery !!
Because you are my solace in solitude,
And the fellow mate to climb great altitude..

''EMOTIONS''

Respecting someone...

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You hit me to control me. 

You hit where the bruises don't show.

You psychologically damage me, bend and distort my own mind.

You treat me like I'm an animal - like I'm the lowest kind of...

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I listen for the sound of the key in the gate
The kids grow pensive and I grow brave
For I know that the jingle of the key means one thing
He has come back tonight to reign...

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The fatal flaw
The internal void
The lack of worth affliction
Finally realising it is a state of being
It's true but also fiction
I had inconsistent attachment
That's the formal phrase 
My brain has made adjustments
As I coped in different...

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I have a best friend, 
The one who is my strength, 
The cheering when your winning,
And strength upon my face. 

It lives inside my head

The bigger enemy clouds my best friend,
Creates the shadowy figures in...

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He’s my hero rock from the ground
Strong and gentle he holds my hand
My face turns pale lip starts to quiver 
Knuckles turn white protrude through my skin
Remove my shoes push my toes into the floor
Start...

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I love cauliflower
I eat it every day its true
I like broccoli as well
I love veggies just like you 

I don’t know why you grump 
I see you stomping round
Giving me the side eye
Making sweary sounds

What...

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I hate waiting..
i think it's irritating..
initially I'm coping..
next thing I notice ,time is going..

then i'd pick my fon and start chatting..
after a while even that gets boring.
then if I'd been sitting..
my back starts aching,

 so...

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Same Mistakes?

Still learning about how to act
Still trying to join the pack.
Still lapsing like a terminal case
Still miles way off the human pace.

So stupid, how I can’t explain?
So crazy, such little brain
So insecure, I might...

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Tonight she packed her bags and left 
I cant express the pain I feel 
It's too heavy on my chest 

This is not how I planned it 
Not how I pictured it out in my...

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Turn around;
Look at me.
You'll see my heart outstretched for you. 
You'll see my tears as they fall, 
Silently begging you to come back to me; 
Pleading with you to stay;
Apologising 

Turn around,
For just one second,...

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LOST IN THIS WORLD WIND OF LOVE AND LUST,


LACKING WHAT I SEEK MOST

IN WHICH WAS TRUST,


TRAPPED IN THIS WORLD WIND LEFT ALL BY MYSELF,


BEING SO YOUNG OTHERS BELIEVE I CANT MAKE IT,


ARE THEY RIGHT….

MY HEART...

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