strings of my heart pulled tight close to fracture
seduced, captivated thoughts, memories
unable to control hearts contracture
start to examine minds directories,
regrets flowing through souls blocked arteries
underestimated your great power
her loveable virtues abilities
didn't stop my evil need to deflower,
darkness falls yet energises resolve
to prove intentions was benevolent
demonstrate needs for our love to evolve
convince my actions weren't malevolent
now I crave your undying forgiveness
without you, life's pitiful, no richness.
7/22/2018
Categories:
directories, emotions, forgiveness, lost love,
Form: Sonnet
Outnumbered
You showed me
how outnumbered I was,
how obligation interferes with beauty.
I had nothing except Da Vinci and pigeons in the park,
a place for your weary head on my painted lap.
I was the brevity of your dreams,
a love of life you only sustained when I was around.
You left my garden on your fathers wishes,
became a lawyer,
a very busy person that anonymously purchased my art.
You only breathed again when your very gifted banker left you to find himself.
Visiting the old company gardens again, you found our heart
engraved into a yellow wood tree,
looked for me at exhibitions and art directories. I was gone.
You showed me
how outnumbered we were.
I undressed every painting of mine that morning,
saw the naked truth of inevitability that afternoon,
dressed myself to look like them that evening.
I lost you, art and the silly life of dreams the following months.
It has been twelve years and I send you a link to a poem,
one measly poem that opens up a warehouse of more.
I missed you.
Categories:
directories, farewell, love, love hurts,
Form: Free verse