I think I've lost myself
In finding you in every moment
And living it repeatedly,
I think I've lost control over my heart
In gaining happiness from our little chitchats
I'm losing my sanity,
I'm impressed you don't give an F
When you wanna do your thing,
And here I am
Wasting my time in writing this
When I'm supposed to do some work ,
God!!! I need some clarity.
I respect your boundaries
But dismantled mine
I think I'm jealous
Of your sincerity in life,
I'm not saying you're wrong
I just wish you could miss me
As much as I do,
I'm not saying you're cold
I just wish you could waste some moments on me
Like I enjoy to do.
I've this urge to merge with you
I've this desire to set up a fire
Around me to save me from you,
Love makes you feel alive,
Too much of it kills you
I still wish you could love me,
As much as I do.
Got up too early to meet my son
At the cop shop for a coffee and a yummy bun
A bi-weekly affair
Been meeting a year
Look forward to our chitchats and having fun
Father, when I was younger ;once upon a time.
You had your jobs being provider, in the meantime.
When I was younger, you didn't understand.
Who I really was, or what I had planned.
As I grew older, you came to respect me more.
when I talk to you now, you have become my mentor.
The Lord instilled in your heart love and compassion.
To better understand others with a reverential passion.
I come to you with past, present and future dilemma’s.
You say a prayer for me, hoping I would listen.
I don't know what to do, I have a plethora full of distresses.
You pray and try to help me out of these so called messes.
We have amicable chitchats about computers and gadgetry.
You take some time out to spend with me.
When I have trouble with my husband, who is a man.
I come to you because, I know you understand.
I thank the Father above for you my father in this worldly place.
I love you, there is no other, like you I would want to replace.