Best Thatt Poems
Last Tuesday night my mother, Jenna comes into the house
I'm sitting in the living room with my other mom, Kelly
Jenna asks us if we could take a drive with her
So we all get in the car
And as we a ll drive, silence creeps along like the cracks of a frozen lake
Our hearts begin to thud slowly off beat
And I wonder and then I know
And I didnt imagine it would end like this
I didn't imagine an ending at all, but if they were going to tell me about the divorce
What a way to do it
I sit in the back seat and think about how lucky we were to have had this family
Their 20 years of marriage, my 15 with them
I remember all of us driving miles out in the highway until I fell asleep in the back seat
i dont want this life to end
Jenna starts to talk
She tells me that our caris just 13 miles away from reaching 100,oo miles now
I wonder if this is part of the divorce speech or just a distraction
I feel angry, they should just say it
She tells me the reason we took this ride is so thatt we could all e there to reach 100,000 miles toghter as the people who matter in our life
Slowly I realize thid idnt a break up ride or a divorce ride or a seperation ride
This is a 100,00 mile ride
Were in the car and we're driving on a Tuesday night
And we're 99,987 miles in
We stop for onion ringd and sundaes
Keep driving 99,993 miles Stevie Nicks
99,997 miles Elton John
When we get to 99,999 miles we holds hands, blast Melissa Ethridge and sing Lucky at the top ouf our lungs
There are too many, reasons that my mamas found love in eachothers presence
There are too many moments when we are unbreakable, and this
moment we are one family
Constructing as we go
Burning bridges behind us
Add mileage like graceful aging
Driving in our car towards moonlight
You do not expect me I am going to describe the stands
Or the moon that is reflected on the river's water
Or the ghostly tribes running along Winnibigoshishi Lake,
Up to the Shakopee and down to the Sioux City,
But the holdings and the last fragrances
Thatt have been grown along my Mississippi Nights.
Since my childhood, no shadows, no scarlet
Has been broken, and back I go:
I was five years old, teeny and dark, so beautiful around my mother's arms,
All proud and bough, and I sung all summer
As I was watching my Mississippi Nights.
Long tales as they had been told through the stripped dance
And drowsy learning, yet it already has been told by wrinkled faces,
And by those toothless mouths, that arisen sun has gone,
In such fashion of pain and smoke,
But no one could tell me after the long ceremony
How beautiful and still my Mississippi Nights.
From the South to the North; from Granite Falls to
Prairies Island, I knew every stone and leaf, the flavor
Of the smokes and shine, the cute young Indian girls
Who were best known, that by June
I fell and hit -- even though I was skinny and dumb --
Every girl in delight but there was nothing like than my Mississippi Nights.
As a man now so unique and coward!
From whom I have got no Indian Blood Left,
Princely I bent. Not to risen against the Great Spirit
Even perhaps by pain and love I should say
But I was still looking at myself through my Mississippi Nights.
Graceful and healthful to the tradition I call you too my strong boy.
Along with my Indian woman, now fifty-two, and caring spring she has before;,
Through the lower Sioux, and the higher St. Cloud and beyond,
And somewhat south and north, I must demand
To myself to see once more my Mississippi Nights.
Love is like a juicy, apple,
for those of us,
who wish to dapple,
Lucious, fresh and red,
first your dating,
then you wed,
sometimes it can get quite sour tasting,
and you wonder,
the time your wasting,
but mostly crisp and sweet,
though love,
I's rarely ever neat,
you may divide it into slices,
times that are good,
and those times in crisis,
but don't pick thatt poisen apple,
from that apple tree,
for may may deeply regret,
your future destiney.
i used to bee the T'keyah Thatt -
Laughed at others whn they were hurt,
cared only about myself,
played entirely too muchh,
thought i wus [above] othrs whn it came to my education,
tried to be bestfriends with the teacher,
only went places with Alexis Rutherford
always put it in my head that i would NEVER disappoint my mother,
& stayed mad at my father because he wus never in my lifee . .
, but thn -
middle school camee alonee,
boys caught my eyes,
teachers weren't like they were at Vineville Academy,
my mind became maturer thn my agee,
i wus introduced to more thangs for older kids,
i convinced myself to question my father about thangs i wantd to know
& i looked at life wayyyy differennt .
Thiss Causedd -
me to separate myself from others,
my mind to wonder on . .
me to act up jus for attention,
mee to do the thangs my mind wondered about,
me to understand why my daddy wus never here [im still trying to understand]
& mee to do simple thangs to fit in , but only to find out that once its gone, you never get it back:/
But Noww -
I'm that T'Keyah who -
is always smilingg
always helping others
forever giving advice even whn i cnt take my own,
always waiting for others to realize that once I'm gone, you'll regret the way you treated me,
always crushing on someone,
always laughingg cause its just that fun,
always makingg ppl smile even whn i'm down in the dumps myself,
always crying behind closed doors//
always blaming herself
always lying to herself to make her believe certain thangs.
is missing her uncle jay
thinks nobody loves her,
always questioning "Why" on her life from back in the past,
BUT NEVER regretting any of it, because at one point in time. . that's exactly what she wanted:))
that girl ?
tha girl who smiles regardless of thee situation..
thaa girl who talks extremely too much whn she's bored,
thaa girl who everyone calls weird, but thats only because they don't understand why she does what she doess,
thaa girl who laughs all goofy whn she doesn't wnna say tha wrong thangg,
thaa girl who everyone comes to for advice, but dnt kno that she cnt even give her ownself advicee,
thaa girl who puts a smile on everyone else's face even whn she cnt put one on her own,
thaa girl who cries behind closed doors , & that girl who keeps it all a secret until she's around that one person she trust,
thaa girl whose friends thank that her family is crazy, but only to find out that they cnt even get alone,
thaa girl who does almost everything backwrds,
thaa girl who blames herself for EVERY mistake, but only to TRY to & make it a lesson learned,
thaa same girl that everyone calls REAL, but they dnt understand that she jus NEVER bites her tongue,
thaa same one who everyone says is maturee for her age & has bigg dreams,
thaa one who has always promised herself that she'd make her momma proud regardless of her decisions,
thaa girl whose heart is FULL of wisdom, but she doesn't even kno where it comes from
thaa girl who ALWAYS fall for HIS typee,
& ALWAYS end up in thee same position EVERY time..
thatt same girl whose hiding a secret from one of her friends, but she's afraid her friend may never understand......
ths girl.... that girl.... that same girl.... is me, because I'm that girl
Five hundred twenty five thousand six hundred minutes
what happens in that time?
you find love...
your heart beats on over drive when you find thatt one person
five hundred twenty five thousand six hundred minutes...
A journey, a journey to plan to make sure that you don't suffocate
whenever your love is near....
you leave a note on their door,
"Run far away, so i can breathe, even though you're far from suffocating me..."
Five hundred twenty five thousand six hundred minutes;
how do you measure? How do you measure how many heart beats it takes
to make hot, steamy love with your other
Five hundred twent five thousand six hundred minutes
to kiss and hug and fondle them
before they disappear when you wake up from this dream
five hundred twenty five thousand six hundred minutes
the alarm goes off loudly
waking you from pleasurable sleep
you go about the day
in heart and mind
the dream you keep
five hundred twenty five thousand six hundred minutes
all that time to find love
to find how to measure it
to keep it safe in your grasp
to have tight in your fingers
in your heart
five hundred twenty five thousand six hundred minutes
that's life
life and love
you learn to laugh
it'll pass quickly...
live
love
laugh...
it'll pass..
Sitting here wondering about tomorrow
Seeing my life has so much sorrow
Wondering what is my next take
Not even knowing if I will wake
I wonder what is the next rise
As I know things will be a surprise
The world is a hard place
Troubles of life is what I face
My heart is in pain
Starting to go insane
Instead of picking up the knife
I evaluate my life
See what God has pulled me through
I know his promises are true
I feel all alone inside
But I know God has people by my side
Time is such of an essence
Giving me lots of life lessons
I hurt inside all my life
I once thought about using a knife
God gave me a pen
So I wouldn't put my life to an end
I know thatt I am not full of wonder
But I'm not going to fall under
My time on earth is a blessing
I know my life isn't resting
Pushing forward to make through
I know this much is true
God has me by the hand
Its time for me to take a stand
Drenched in tears, its pouring and consuming , everythings in my face.
I solve this, and it comes right back, nothing to protect me, hurt takes its place.
Trying to let me shine through, and still stand up to the music.
Was hoping to see betterr days, not with you, cause I keep going through this.
I know what you want , taking me for all I am ,but not the last drop.
As long as I am left, my mouth will still speak, I can still stop.
So have my trust, hold my fears against me, make me not wanna stay.
Lie, cheat and scream cause I got this feeling an smile thatt won't go away.
And it kills you to know , that I ain't worried and I'm on a straight path.
It don't get in my way, I'm not guilty and I ain't looking back.
Awe babe!
I'm so glad that i am your dream guy! Nothing makes me happier
And you done unlocked all of my feelings, fears and secrets
I've shared things with you that
Ive never shared with anyone else
The things you say to me, just melts my heart and makes me fall thatt much more
and that much deeper in love with you
Every time I'm on my way to work i'm just thinking to myself half hour away
till i get to see that smiling beautiful face
That smile babe starts and makes my day everytime
We sat at a bench near a wide big meadow.
While seeing the dog drinking some water from the lake not hearing him drinking at all, the leaves were playing cello.
Red Bull I held in my hand.
,,you slurp?"
,,who does not?",
you say while looking at me concerned:
,,you're a weird human.
When you slurp the drink just tastes better.
And then this ahhhhh in the end."
,,hahahahh stoppp, I hate people doing thatt",
,,whyy? Or I also always accidently smack my lips while eating.
I just eat really quick."
,,eww, stop it"
His hand reached the back of the bench:
,,man, you don't understand the construct of a Human mind."
I felt a jacket my body covering, even though we had such an distand, I felt held.
,,hahahahha"
,,what?"
,,I am just like that.
I loveee to crack my fingers or neck even though some people say I might day our blood doesn't come through anymore.
Or when I am eating not scooping always to my side,
I mean the Tomato of my sister at the back seems kinda delicoius.
You rose your eyebrows.
You had always a chilly attitude but your bodylanguage wasn't laid back kinda,
you came near and stood still.
,,yooo, you scare me"
I say.
,,chill, there's something beneath your theeth"
,,good to know"
,,mhm"