Best Self Destruct Poems
When I fell I had no one to help me up
I was laughed at, Bullied and kicked while I was down
Alcohol was too important to my parents for them to be around
Someone give me a hug before I self destruct
Forced to go through the storm alone with no rain coat on
Hoping my nightmare would end but the pain goes on
Parents didn't wrap me up or prepare me
I stepped into the cold world and it scared me
I was taken away from my parents and placed with foster families
Made to feel worthless and they have the nerve to question my sanity
27 foster families by the age of 11 I'm used to change
At 14 I started self-harming to try and remove the pain
It worked for a while
But most people could see the hurt in my smile
Going to school with long sleeved jumpers in summer
Feeling worthless because my parents didn't call despite having the number
5 days before my 15th birthday my Father passed away
He wasn't my father, he was never there, I don't even miss him today
Got to see him and mum 6 times a year if they turned up
When he passed I was still waiting for my first hug
I started sleeping with numerous girls not caring about their feelings
Using them as my bandage because I was bleeding
I was wrong for that, now I hate myself for treating those beautiful girls like that
I was young and in a world of pain so I didn't know how to act
I used so many girls for sex when I needed a hug more
But I couldn't express it because I hadn't felt love before
I've came a long way and I am no longer like this
But the 16 year old me needed me to write this
When I fell I had no one to help me up
I was laughed at, Bullied and kicked while I was down
Alcohol was too important to my parents for them to be around
Someone give me a hug before I self destruct
You hold your cards
A smile stretches across your face
But I’ll beat you at your own game
Defeat you with my ace.
You stole my heart away
And I’ll fight to get it back
Oh my dear
Things will only get worse from here.
So shut your eyes
This won’t hurt a bit
You won’t want to witness
The murder I’ll commit.
The hum of the dagger
The strike of the blade
The edges are sharp
Cutting open the veins.
Running on broken mirrors
That reflect the pain
Pale cuts still deep
The scars will remain.
I should have seen it coming
I knew you’d break my heart
The damage is now done
Now watch me break your world apart.
You don’t need my help
The devious plan I construct
Is I wont have to lift a finger
I’ll just watch you self destruct.
I was your little puppet
With strings tied to your black soul
But I’m cutting the bonds loose
And taking back control.
You caught me off guard
Then kicked me when I went down
But I know you’ll get your karma
What goes around comes around.
My eyes sharpened
Fire burned in my eyes
Only a lone tear is shed
As I watch you die.
But this is my revenge
I hope you are well aware
You’ll never understand how much you hurt me
This crime fails to compare.
I died in silence
The act was done in secret
The day I died cold and alone
I will not soon forget.
I raise the dagger
Plunged it into your chest
Smiled when it was over
The act was relieving and final at best.
You take in a sour last breath
Your probably to distant to hear
But I kneel down by your side
To whisper “I love you” in your ear.
The quickness of action without serious thought or consideration
for what can become,
I sometimes feel like a man staring down the
barrel of a gun, loaded and pointed by myself at myself,
no understanding of the start but fully aware of
the end result the terminal part,
the full blast of awareness that i,ve aimed for the heart,
taken pains to gain pain to hit with force to
late now to change course,
then to fully feel the reality of cold truth,
that i,ve slipped again into realms of dark pain
destructive soul chain,
I pray to say sorry,
can I stop and start again.
Form:
No man nor beast can survive,
In a climate meant to deprive.
Barren of hope and loss of scope,
Where no one gets out alive.
Seeking a place to reside,
Full of contempt and pride.
You've followed a path, guided by wrath,
That destroys the goodness inside.
Lost in a forest of shame,
Looking for someone to blame.
Blinded by fears and drowning in tears,
Will mark the end of the game.
All that remains is a shell,
Now a prisoner bound in Hell.
The death of dreams and nightly screams,
Left alone in an empty cell.
Don't you know you hold the key,
And the will to set you free.
It starts today, once you say,
This isn't who I want to be.
Bad decisions are made...
Clock starts ticking
Hope begins to fade...
Clock still ticking
Love ones are ignored...
Clock still ticking
Even those you adored...
Clock still ticking
You look for others pity...
Clock still ticking
There’s none left in this city...
Clock still ticking
You continue without asking why...
Clock still ticking
Things would turn around if you try...
Clock still ticking
You ignore good advice...
Clock still ticking
Cling to anyone who is nice...
Clock still ticking
Upset with the consequences that flowed...
Clock stops ticking
And now....
You explode
Oh so rapidly everything slips through your fingertips
Things so out of reach
One moment you have it all
The next you just don't
One second you're doing just fine
The next you're spinning into oblivion
One moment you have control
The next it's all lost
Weeks pass, you still don't know the day
You're on self destruct mode
There's no panic button
Just the self destruct
Oh so tempting.
I'll just leave your hand hoovering.