Best I Can't Stand It Poems
I fell, I fell hard...when i lost you..I cant catch my breath like i used too. Lost and confused, angry that you left. It wasn't your choice, I understand that. I didn't only lose you that dreadful day i also lost myself, my mind and my entire life cause it hasn't been the same. you loved me unconditionally how do i function without that now. My body still here but I'm dead inside from all the pain and sorrow i feel cause i will never see you or talk to you again. My mind likes to wonder now all on its on it's scary sometimes..I'm worried everyone will leave me all alone. I think of you alot, and smile cause you always made me laugh..I cant stand it..its not right...i feel like where in a dream all the time. You were the best grandfather, wasn't fair how you suffered up to your very last breath..you held on so long day after day cause u couldn't stand how you had to leave us that day. I remember talking to you and you would try to tell me something back..don't worry i know what is was I love you but i have to leave you i need u to know i will be watching you don't let yourself go....I know i told you its okay for you to go,,,but I'm sorry grandpa i lied,,,, I didn't want you to leave me i still needed you around, call me selfish I don't care, you belong here with me not away so far. I cant accept it or handle it the way I should cause my mind and my heart stopped doing thier work. everyone tells me snap out of it, act right, but i cant I don't know how i lost the one who guided me through life...I feel like a burden, all needy, like I'm in the way..so why do i stay? I need you to tell me that your okay...cause i cant move on like this i just cant, there is no way.
Poems by Jefri/me
The world is going round
but to me is going wrong
My school is my dream
even though my teachers are mean
I cant stand it no more
but everyday I hope no more bore.
I stare at him, my breath stops, and my blood runs cold,
He is the one man I know I will always love,
He is the only person I ever want to make love to,
He is so sweet and kind, but also can be mean and hurtful,
Tonight is the latest in a long line of times we will share the same bad,
As short of a time as 2 hours makes, I will enjoy it well I have the time with him,
He is not really mine anymore, but he doesn't belong to another either,
So i guess he still is mine, or at lest I am still his, that I know for sure,
His sent is ingrained in my mind, the way he looks at me, half-man half-godlike,
He knows I love him, and deep down I know he loves me just as much,
He is leaving soon and I cant stand it, will miss him in every way, everyday,
He starts to walk over to me, as I sit there waiting for him to come over to me,
I can feel my heart pounding, I know what is next, I know he loves me, he has to,
It would feel this right if he didn't, would it, he has to love me,
He couldn't touch me the way he does with so much love and passion, if he didn't,
As i lay next to him, after the pleasure stops and my heart rate goes down,
The best feeling in the world sets in, I feel loved and I want this to never end,
I would lay like this forever, just like this with him next to me, breathing together,
I love feeling his weight on top on me, him arms hold me close to him,
Laying like this I feel truly loved and protected, I wish I could do this every night,
I would marry him now if he asked, but he's not ready for that yet,
I really don't know if he ever will, but if he is I hope to god I will be made his wife,
I want to be the mother of his children, his wife, the person next to him in bed
every night,
I need to feel his kiss, the feeling of his kiss, I would not be the same without him
in my life,
In a little wile I must go back to my house, my bedroom, away for him and his
safety,
He pulls me close and whispers I love you so much baby softly, I start to cry,
He will be gone soon, no more love, no more nights just laying there holding
each other.
I get a rush, Im on a natural high,
I get so shaky , when youre nearby.........
I really love being with you,
please dont get me wrong, Its just a feeling inside,
a feeling thats strong.........
You're special to me and have a special place in my heart,
thats why I cant stand it when we are apart.........
We can't be together all the time, I know
but I'll always have you with me in a place
where others can't go..........
You make me happy when I'm sad,
and smile when I'm blue,
You should know by now , that
I really Love you...........
There are so many things that I'd like to do,
and say,
It could take a lifetime,
Lets get started , okay?
N.L.F.
Form:
This world is curropt
and I cant stand it
It a disgrace
and I want to mend it
Its discusting and filthy
and I want to bathe it
Its smut filled
and I want to change it
Its marose
and I want to beautify it
I now hate it
and I want to love it
Its out of control
and I want to tame it
Its a dying shame
and the medias to blame
with there subliminal messages going straight to your brain
morals are dead and God no longer exists
and Ignorance persists while,
Corruption has overtaken our socity
and This world is tarnished
Innocence is constantly Murdered
Everything is condoned
And it all makes me sick
It really makes me tick
This Generation is screwed and its just getting worse
Is there anyway to put it in reverse
To start over new
to cleanse and restore purity
to our rapidly Dying Generation
and all this makes me think
maybe the world should end in
2012
maybe it'd be better
maybe were the reason that it's supposed to happen
because we've became so unaware
and we shamed God and disgraced him so viley
so if thats how it is ill go gracefully
and ill know exactly why
because we dont grow as generations go on
we shrink and degenerate
and its probally to late
to regenerate
Do i have a say in what i do or dont do?
Am i alowed to choose what i want to do and what i dont want to do?
Are you honestly gonna make me do something i really dont want to do?
Can i have a say in this?
I know you think i can do better,
I know you think i could be amazing,
i know i know i know!
But you have to let me choose wheither i want to do it or not.
I love softball, one of my favortie sports,
but not wehn i come home crying after practice,
then its just not fun,
it makes me what to give up
it makes me what to drop my glove and walk away,
never pick up a glove or a ball again,
it makes me want to quit,
only one thing will stop that.
If you treat me like everyone else,
which means dont yell at me,
i will be fine,
i will love the sport, once again.
but as of right now, i cant stand it,
i cant take it,
i cant pick up another ball or glove again,
all becasue of you
I dont see why i dont have a say in this,
im still playing skool team,
just not the outside team,
what do you want from me?
you tell me i need higer grades,
well its hard wehn u have softball everyday,
and have NO time for anything else.
i need time
i need a say in this,
just give me a say,
and maybe,
i will love softball once again
You're supposed to trust me, i did nothing wrong, why do I deserve this pain, this hurt, this suffering, this sorrow? I wish for death, relief of pain, I cant stand it anymore, kill me now please before tomorrow. Will i never live my dream, have a wedding, a life, a family. Life is anything and everything but fair, I feel like I cant even have a child to bare. I work all day, I work all night, I bust my ass but still we fight. We cant get along or make this work, if ya dont trust me someone's gonna get hurt. Though i could use a glass of wine, and know this pain and sorrow aint just mine. I hope and pray things will improve, God help me cuz i dont know what to do.
I know your breathing
I know your bleeding
pain inside
kills the time.
I cant stand it here
lost in my fear
let me go
I want to know
Why do you not notice
the look on my face?
the tears in my eyes?
the empty space?
Breaking my soul
telling me to go
wanting to show
how hard is it to
actually be this way.
Im letting you be
forget about me
-Terri Evans
Form:
Oh Goddess
Of Pain
What will I do
Without you
Everyday
You bless me
With the feeling of pain
You make me hurt
Every single day
Do you like to
Hurt me so much
With all the pain
You give me
You tear my heart
Apart so much
I cant stand it
I try to stitch it
Back together
But you dont want
That to happen
So you just tear open
My new heart
Sometimes I wonder
If what you give me
Is not a gift
I wonder
If it is
A curse
That you pledge on me
I dont know
What I shall do
With you watching me
Every single day
Making my life
Miserable then ever
Some pain is good
But I have one little question
Just for you
Will you please
Let up a little bit
From all the pain you give me
I cant take it
Anymore
So please
Just think about it
And hopefully
Youll understand
I am just human
That is not the strongest
In the world
So like I said
Please
Just think about it
I know I will
Be thinking about it
Hoping that you understand
Because it hurts so much
I cry myself
To sleep every night
Wanting the pain to go away
I feel very tired
Right now
So I am going to go
And cry myself to sleep
Wanting you
The Goddess of Pain
To take away
All the pain
You have given me
From day after day
Form:
The shallow breaths, a pounding heart.
I try not to lose control
fighting against the darkness
the threatens to swallow me whole
my shaking hands, unsteady steps
just trying not to fall apart in the spot that I stand.
I dont know how I got this way
but I can easily fall apart
I feel like someone should wrap me up
in tape labeled warning and fragile
one drop one crack and I just might fall apart
some people call it anxiety
while some might say unstable
all I know is I cant stand it
I feel completely out of control.
I dont understand how to cope
with this feeling
Anxiety
I used to slice and bleed to away
just to keep it at bay for a while
till that just wasn't an option anymore
then I would scratch and claw myself raw
to make the darkness fade away
now I breath deeply, rock back and forth
fighting the tears that slide down my face
count and whisper numbers
not stopping till the shaking goes away
I try to keep busy
fill my mind with random things
books, shows and music
trying not to have a empty head
its when its empty that the feeling comes back
letting me know I haven't escaped
but I wont let this feeling
anxiety
beat me
I will beat it and get it under control
because of I where to ever give up
if I ever gave in
then I would have lost
and anxiety just wont win
not with me, not this time or the next
im stronger than that
and I will show everyone.
you are wonderful.
i dispise you.
you are amaizing.
i spite you.
you are beautiful.
i am repulsed by you.
you are deserving.
i am jealous of you.
you are everything i want to be.
i cant stand it.
No bias, no compassion, no tracks laid down
Grown up, ran over, the signs are still around
The space a vacant complex where we once stood
To go back, to remember, I want so much for you
The would've, the should've, you could
We cut the tall trees down with no look to the future
Not to those we love or the ones we create
To tread on cold feet, no fire in sight
The dusk fades and the blackness turns to night
this is a ******** battle this shouldn't even be a fight
Put me up, far away, in a special "place"
Just come with me, we will run away
Now is now and the past shouldn't always be something we hate
to bad we never got the chance at that first date
I've learned how about you? Now that we've all started over anew
I can be that idol, i can be that man
Hold tightly, close your eyes, and give me your hand
Everyone a pick up when they are down
I can be there you know i can listen
Just for one night, come dance with me, I'll show you what you're missing
I'm not a band-aid and certainly not a cure
But I've a heart of gold, and my intentions are pure
I've been bled just as you've been before
I hope it's the last, i cant stand it looking away, and locking the door
Stand up lets go, I'm giving all of me to you
Don't make me say the twice,
for you there's not a thing i wouldn't do
I threw it away, the liquid courage the false hope smoke
No sorrows to drown it, just a clear, open road
Now is the time for change, just let me know when your ready
when you want to pick up and go.
This whisper, i seal to you my promise,
The funny thing is I'm not going to push you,
i just really hope you notice
Form:
im so sorry
i cant be with
you right now
im a thousand
miles away
im so sorry
that you cant
cry on my shoulder
right now because
you found out your
boyfriend cheated on
you with your best friend
im so sorry i cant help
you with your problems
but i promise im am
watching over you tonight
im so sorry if i hurt you
to if i did i didnt mean to
i will always love you
no matter what happens
i cant stand it when you
cry because your hurt
that makes me want to cry
with you but im so sorry
i cant because im in heaven
watching over you like i promised
AS i get up wash my face
Then find something to eat
Get myself together before i hit the streets
Thinking what can I do today it'll come to me
But until it do I'm speaking on what I see
Gun violence at an all time high
War all u see on the news
Covid19 had you trapped in the house
Unless you were essential
People cracking under mental pressure
The value of the dollar still dropping
Mass shootings in schools
And its not stopping,anytime soon
From what my eyes can see
Weed legal and I'm happy yes that's a plus to me
But don't take your eye off the prize,getting distracted
Its eyes everywhere the eye can see,
Cameras everywhere just look up and say cheese,
No privacy everyone want your information
At one time they lied about what happened in space
About ET's what's going on different planets
Who were the first people on earth and man I cant stand it,
But yes indeed the rabbit hole do go deep,
I'll leave it there for now,part 2 coming soon,
Just something to think about while u sitting in your living room.....
I wana be with you
Because having your heart,
only feels right.
Your smile so bright,
Your laugh so right.
All i want is a chance,
A chance to be with you,
To prove my point,
For the way i feel.
I cant stand it,
Your driving me insane.
Though thoughts cant discribe my feelings for you,
Or tell you how i feel
you wouldnt understand it
Love, my love for you is real
And if you asked for proof
I would stand in the rain
Coughing and sneezing
In the cold
Just to show you my feelings for you.
All i want is a chance,
A chance to be with you,
To prove my point,
For the way i feel.