Best I've Had Enough Of This Poems
Meet me at the end
Inside the fire we'll begin
See what you've done to these men
Even Ive had enough of this
Realize that you have sinned
You will burn in your insolence
The friends im with now soften the craving to drink
Had enough of the alcohol the smell and the stink
As i write down these words my friends kick in
The craving for a drink is strong but i wont let it win
6 weeks cold turkey now its getting slightly easier
The drinking days now getting slighter hazier
Me thinking in drink everything was so pleasent
The realisation now it was just a depressant
Hopefully now drinks behind me and im working to a plan
Ive got new friends now there called diazapam
Taken twice daily there helping the fight
By taking the edge off they give me respite
Along with the diaz's theres other friends too
Theres a friend called zoplicone he helps me sleep through
And along with the metazapine who gets me through the day
The dark thoughts i harbour he helps keep at bay
But.....are these friends, the meds that i mention
Or do they just mask the anxiety and tension ?
Am i just thinking these friends are on my side
Or are they just suppresing the inevitable a downward slide
(6 months on)
The drinking the drugs both negative fads
The tablets arnt real friends there born in the labs
8 months dry now but my life is just fiction
My friends are my life now my new addiction
Confused and muddled pilled up and sedated
Ive swopped demon for demon my thirst isnt sated
Im in the grip of my friends now my problems seem wider
Ive had enough of this zombie state i reach for the cider
Its looming presence alerts me
I don't want to turn around
The sense of hate, anger and evilness that fills the room
I'm still, like I am frozen in time
It gets in my head
Don't do this
Don't do that
Your a disappointment
Why would you do that
I'm disappointed in you
The darkness fills my head with all these words
It consumes my brain
Leaving nothing but mush and those words
It's looming presence alerts me
I don't to turn around
The sense of anger, hate and evilness that fills the room
I'm still like I am frozen time
It all gets in my head
I'm breaking up with you
I love you so much
Can i demote you to bestfriend status
Your my queen, your my everything
I LOVE YOU
The darkness fills my head with all these words
it consumes my brain leaving nothing but mush and those words
just make up your mind
do you love or do you love me not
this isnt a flower where you can pick off the petals
this is my heart your pulling apart
i may be your queen
but then why are you never there to be my king #
this wasnt a one sided relationship
i give up
i just give up ok
this darkness overwhelms me
i cant take it anymore
theres too much to handle
what is this thing
why wont it stop
am i the only one
is it targeting me because im weak
or because im different
what is its problem
theres billions of people in the world
so why did you choose to torcher me
i have enough i dont want
I DONT NEED IT!
your fat
your ugly
eww just eww
seriously you pansexual
really you have friends
the darkness fills my head with all these words
it consumes my brain leaving nothing but mush and those words
what is its problem
theres billions of people in the world
but then why does it always choice me
i am the target
im the weak one in the relationship and thats how it will always be
its looming presence alerts me
i dont want to turn around
the sense of hate, anger and evilness that fills the room
im still like im frosen in time
it gets in my head
it stopped ,me from thinking, it stopes me from loving and from hating
ive had enough of this
i dont need you alright
i dont need any of it
i dont need it
i dont want it
JUST PLEASE GO AWAY!