Best Depressionworld Poems
Do you hear it?
that cracking sound,
It's just my heart breaking down.
Did you see that?
that sad broken man,
Who's lost and still not found.
Can you bear it?
this world that's down,
and quickly falling to the the ground.
Can you take it?
this constant feeling,
of joy within a rope and ceiling.
Through these years of pain and sorrow there's one thing i know,
If you take your heart out and parade it on a show,
You will be destroyed inside and feel every blow,
the pain grows on and all you can do is hang in there and watch it,
until that day the pain breaks free and takes you whole self with it,
until that day you'll be in shame and ask your self these questions.
Can you feel it?
that small thing,
that grows into a lonely ending.
Can you taste it?
that sour feeling,
that expands into a world of hate.
Do you hate it?
this constant ringing.
this voice inside wont keep quiet.
Will you stop it?
the final question,
by then it will be to late.
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How it must feel to be homeless, all alone on the streets of this world
I ponder this quite often, wondering where I would go if I had no where else to go
Dropping through the cracks of our society into the dark subtext of this world's heart
How would I ever crawl out of such a grimy, jagged crevice back into what I would call life
Protecting myself from the blackened hearts of our populous
Where would I get hope from when the truth is so horrible and lies seems so beautiful
Would I steal for food when I'm starving for strength
Would I kill for security, just to be safe and not for another night weep
I wish not to think about how dark the darkness would grow that's already inside of me
And through my thoughts I find that this world doesn't resemble me
Doesn't value the same moral fiber as I do, doesn't share the same deduction as I do
And I search for why I am here, why I can't seem to survive in this alien world
“God why am I even alive in a world that I'm so different from that I can't survive”
Pain is good I know I’m
Alive
In a world of hate in a world of lies
No one can see what is happening to me
Personal hatred in my personal life
Agonizing pain caused from my lies
Inside I wish that I could just die
No one can see that all I am is a lie
People don’t see me nobody cares
Anguish and hatred is all I see there
Intent on relief a razor I hold
Nicking my skin I don’t care what I’m told
Peace is all that I want, can
Anyone hear me
Involved with my life
No one can see me
Pain, sharp pain as I slice my wrist
After life’s gone that’s all that I wish
Incentive for life is all but gone
Never will feel cause my life is done
Post Mortem
Did you hear them sing dirge:
When the world comes crashing down on me,
Did you hear those voices across the divide?
A cacophony of tormented brain
All dead and moldy like forgotten bread,
Dust to dust,
Ashes to ashes;
Their lives begin to wan
As ashes from their burning hemp bush
That is just about what it is,
Their lives nailed with needle and shot away
And all the dark sores,
Spun a tangles tale of million arms
When this madness finally settle like death,
And after all the soaring
High up like a bird,
After all the falling, sprawling supine
And whimpering, eyes dilating,
Groaning like tired door
After all the hours in the back-rooms,
Of walking nights In dark corner streets
Of knives that flash deviance
To stark-eyes victims
The spiting cough from over laboured guns,
All for propitiation for the spirits
Of their consuming gods, After all of these
Someone still got his addict soaking brain splash
Out to foul the air
A tormented, yet a nice sleep.
Then commence that shout across the divide,
Help! Liberate this soul from
That which diminishes
From this quagmire, the deadness;
Of imprison moments.
And that is just all
With tip of match sticks
They measured out their life
And got filled up their nostrils
Exploded into the abyss
And a dirge: when the world comes Crashing down on me.
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Suicide is just an escape,
from a lonely world full of hate.
In this world there's no love and friendship,
it's full of tears and hatred.
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I protect it, i die for it, last in line and first to cry on it, this nightmare, horror swallows this eternity, last in
cage and first to suffer, for the rest of the world to party and drink, gone too far, too heavy the man i hang,
master of horror, lord of darkness, he cage me into nghtmare, droped in the sea of agony, restless, waking up
in fear, screaming, palms sweating, no name for what i created, mind dead for years, eternity of sleepless
nights, grownth for burial, numbered days, none we ask the babylon to fear, mourn the beast out the sky, oh
such a nightmare, red eyes in dark room, dead snakes in bright palace, the house desinerate forever to ashes,
burial of nightmare, scared besides my empty grave, the door is closed, am i alive or dead, my world grow
endless, roads fade to hide, themselfs made a recognition, no one will find them, i cant sleep but my eyes are
closed, cant hide but im inside, heat outside, my flesh burned with no pain, alive now to die morrow, my
world, my nightmare, both mixed to rise hell on my head, clock ticks, nightmare tocks, im awake, sweating
and wanting to hide, i guess one more night of endless nightmare.
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I am a shadow of self
Pale pain and waned desire
To tired to continue this rage
The fire in my belly has gone away
This world of black
Upon my health, life and love, did attack
I never spoke the words “I surrender”
Though I should have
My health and drive steadily deplete
I myself can sense the heat
Of death being near,
I no longer admire my mirror
Because I was taught
To not bend a strangers ear
How do I get my world back?
I regret this new world of black
I wear this peel of hate
My same old skin
But we no longer relate
I’ve dropped so much weight
From so much abuse
Forget about my clothes
Even my tattoos are loose.
I usta be beautiful ,honest and full of life
but that candle burned out real quick
and the old me is outa sight
my trust has withered away to nothing and it makes my hair fall out
My bones are sore and dull,
trying not to snap then crumble to peices and blend with the earth
My face has started to wrinkle though im still young
My mind is An Angry sceptic watching from the backround ready to pounce
My soul has been auctioned off to hell years in the past
This world has taken a loving ,kind gentle soul
and beat and molded her into
a common bitter biotch
my world crumbles to ash
and i am gone
crusted to the core of the earth
and im just living on a usta be
becuase you all have
killed the genuine me
she sits she wonders why the world keeps spining
why every day some one dies or gets rapped
wondering why she is not pretty
she sits and stares in the mirrow wishing she was pretty like everyone else
she wishes she was not one of those who have died
she wishes was stilll alive to make the wrong things better
she wishe she could change the world but she can not
because it still would be hell
sometimes Im not myself
im someone else for a day
where tears flow easily
and anger makes its mark
relationships are hurt
hardships unnumbered
dangeroulsy hanging over my head
by a thin, breaking string
sometimes the string breaks
lands on me in a horrific mess
but i am only human
should i not have the right to cry
to sob to pity myself
noone knows what goes on
in the dark shadows of my mind
the pitch black silence in my dreams
my thoughts my feelings
my nightmares
noone knows the real me
the emotional, pitiful me
the average person cannot catch
the fraudness in my overly happy persona
does not catch the flaws that flow so much through me
how sad my world really is.
sometimes my only refuge is the dark and solem corners of my mind
sometimes sleep is the closest one person can get to death
but i will never know will i
the world is so cruel
but i can be just as cruel
but i choose not to be
instead i suffer
rather than to break free from pain
into slightly shallower waters
take an easy step for once in my life
you say "baby its okay, its gonna be alright, baby, just wait'
but it wont be
never was and never will be
you say "i wish i could make it disapear, i really do"
but where would i be without it?
i would not be human
i would be even more a tragedy than i already am
noone understands me
they say i am the wierdo girl
who sits in the back of the class
writing poetry
as if thats so bad?
its who i am
besides, who are you to judge?
everyone judges you, do you like it?
if you do, your not human
everyone knows that it hurts
thats just the visious cycle of life
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I fear I have little time
I've lost all that is mine
From this world I will soon resign
I'm afraid the stars just didn't align
Setup for failure by design
I was always out of line
All I loved will confine
itself into a restrictive fine
Nowhere to recline
Nothing to enshrine
Watch it continue to decline
Because it's no longer mine to define
I fear I have no time
In this world we've been forced to consign
Today is the most depress
I have ever been
I talked to my kids on the phone today
I haven't heard their sweet vocies for months
I couldn't hold back my tears
It was like they didn't even know who I was
Man I was so crushed
They are my world
But sense I've lost them
My world been one big spining top
that never stops
I would do anything to have them back
But ever time I fight I lose
I just want to step in traffic
And say forget
I try and be strong but
I don't know how much longer
I can be strong
Cause my weekness is shinning threw
A little more each day
The light of the world breaks in.
It brings death to my song.
I search for the shadows so my heart can cower.
I try to elude disicovering the truth, light, and life.
Still, the light always finds me as I search for dark.
Darkness is my only companion.
In the dark everything seems normal and real.
There no one can see my pain or my fear.
If only the entire world was darkness
Only then could I be free.
In the darkness no one can see
The horrors of my light.
My face is in disguise.
The shadows flash against the walls.
There, all things are free.
I do not have to face myself.
The darkness covers the pain.
Why can all the world not be cast in darkness?
burnings wings of fire
stretched across a desolate sky
flames from my belly
ignite the world on high
rain falls down
giant tears of flame
cried from a beast
too old to have a name
the world burns by a light
which no man has ever seen
even the angels up in heaven
can hear the peoples' scream
the night is gone
replaced by burning day
the flames are too bright
to ever fade away
all hope is gone
everyone can tell
our entire world
replaced by this burning hell
Even though how hard I try
My wings can't remember how to fly
All alone in a world so cold
Always wrong and alone
As one thought comes to mind
Fears, tears and hurts inside
When you finally realize
The meaning of sharp objects
In an empty room
There is nothing more you can do
Here comes the rain
Hitting harder than before
I might show you my pain
If you show me yours
It seems I have borne my
troubles better than you thought I would
Would it make a difference if
I stopped, if I got wasted or got lost?
If I cried in front of you
Would you cry too or would you
just walk away? What more is
there to say?
There goes the rain
Drowning my world away
You can show me yours
But I have too much pain
Written November 29, 2005
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