Best Choke Back Poems
The cares of the world waft away like
the vague images of a forgotten dream
when he climbs into bed beside me.
And my comfort is found in the warmth
of a slight up-curved smile relaxing across
an unshaven face tickling me with a
hundred kisses as I squeal to his delight.
A calloused hand urges the small of
my back gently forward as I fuss in
mock protest of his boyish game.
His eyes gleam indulgently making my
heart swell with such regard I
choke back joyful tears and throw
my arms possessively around him.
With a knowing sigh he draws me in,
cradling me in his capable arms
sworn to provide and protect.
Then he buries his face in my copper-red
hair breathing its henna scent, and
holding me tight, he whispers my name,
swearing love that will never relent.
Categories:
choke back, husband, love, me, romance,
Form:
Free verse
sleeps not coming on a night like this
when every thing's quiet
and the thoughts rush in
like tears at that moment
of truth and revelation
when you realize that all that you love
and searched for above
has been here all along
and it's all you can do to laugh and choke back tears
when you figure out
that forever has got brown hair
and a knife for a smile
and she's been here all the while
my forever has been here all the while
Categories:
choke back, introspection, love, passion,
Form:
Free verse
So glad, so happy, enthralled to have a job! Chortling as I choke back words. The verse part of my garden absurdly lacking. But so thrilled, tickled, absolutely agog.
bouquet of part-time
bloomed into three full days -
my garden suffers
3/20/2019
Categories:
choke back, writing,
Form:
Haibun
Our Las Vegas Wedding ( For My Love)
As our feet finally touch down on safe terra firma
Thoughts of our marriage could not be further
Jet lagged and weary
In a strange foreign land
From our port hole window
Bright lights...rock silhouette,
Darkness disguising its sand.
Overwhelmed and exhausted
Blackpool times a million is the feeling i get
As we step into the terminal,
From our large jumbo jet.
First sound we hear is the jingles of fruit machines
Welcoming you to Vegas
Its not all that it seems!
Just a teaser...a taster...a hint if you will
A fantasy land to the tourists,
A slave to the dollar bill
My comparisons to a large Blackpool
Could not be further from the truth
As we stand dumbfounded and wowed by its majestic proof!
The reason for our visit is our imminent marriage
As we wait nervously for our luxury carriage
Wee Kirk of the Heather Chapel is our quaint destination,
Chosen for Scottish links
To be the venue of our elation!
My mind is awash with mistakes i may make
A dropped ring or a kiss the wrong way
My bride smiles and reassures me....she feels the same way!
Standing at the altar..as chapel door opens
My beautiful bride in blue appears
My heart starts to race as i choke back a tear
Soon we unite at the head of the alter
Its now that i realise this is natural
Im calm, i will not falter!
Preliminary vows are read by the Minister
Uniting our vows
To pronounce us Mrs and Mr
Our evident relief
As we walk from the chapel
Hand in hand to the flash of the camera
We kiss on the boulevard to start a new chapter in our life
So here's to our future,
And did i mention....My beautiful wife!
Copyright
S Rose
Categories:
choke back, love,
Form:
Free verse
You're a creature so vile.
At your mere sight
I have to choke back the bile.
I'm getting wise to your gimmick,
You're astride with every step of mine.
Everything I do you mimic;
You're nothing more then an idiot pantomime.
When my gaze catches yours
You look straight back.
It's that stare I abhor,
For the emotions it lacks.
Your stare is unflinching,
It burns to my core.
My nerves near panicking,
Filled with spectral horror.
Overwhelmed with paralyzing fear.
Reality seems so unclear.
Why are you only here
When I peer into a mirror?
Categories:
choke back, confusion, fear, introspection,
Form:
Rhyme
A river of tears down my cheeks they roll
all in an effort to clear my mind and cleanse my soul.
Thoughts of my sister and the fight she is in;
the faith, strength, and determination she needs to win.
I hear it in her voice, the struggle to stay strong;
she tries so hard to act like nothing is wrong.
I know her too well, the inflection, it’s there in her voice,
she tries not to cry and then she has no choice.
No longer can she choke back her tears;
she breaks down crying and tells me her fears.
Her hair is falling out in clumps with every touch.
The locks and curls in her hands are just too much.
She’s been through it before, yet wasn’t prepared.
Losing her hair and going bald doesn’t make her scared.
Looking sickly and weak is what she fears most.
She doesn’t want to be stared at like she’s a ghost.
She’s not looking for pity or to be treated different;
She knows people will see she has cancer and pass judgment,
staring at her, whispering, strangers feeling sorry for her.
Instead, my sister wants to inspire others to be stronger.
She sometimes feels her family doesn’t understand,
they all want her to feel comfortable and
walk around the house with her baldness exposed.
She’s been feeling like their minds are somewhat closed.
They don’t understand how sad she is feeling;
It’s not about her bald head she’d be revealing,
it is about feeling it’s her right to cover her head.
She doesn’t want to worry or scare her kids is what she said.
Crying and sobbing on the phone, asking me if it’s okay
because she thinks she’s being selfish to feel that way.
I tell my sister that she’s the most unselfish person I know
and it’s HER decision to not let her bald head show.
She’s doing it to shield her family and close friends.
Her love and deep concern for us never ends.
If I had one ounce of her strength and determination,
I would be a much better woman; she’s my inspiration.
She’s fighting her second battle in the war for her life,
but she’s going to win the war against cancer because her faith is rife!
Categories:
choke back, best friend, cancer, inspiration,
Form:
Rhyme
choke back fright dark and dusty,
flight plan a little rusty,
hope for a ride have fun,
then run, and hide,
twinkle twinkle distant dear
insecure considering all that's been said,
up for interpretation from a rocket bed,
sparkly conjecture, with pale complexion,
simply put a man without a plan of attack,
swells come regular, damn you fear
love is not a modern day invention,
like breathing,
or a one sided upside down mathematical equation,
a lot like truth yet yields ill conclusion
...like sleeping without,
and reaching for air,
because she's not there
Categories:
choke back, dream, emotions, faith, fear,
Form:
As I gaze at the pale blue sky
I can't help but wonder why
Whenever we wish for something the most
This is what becomes ever hopelessly lost.
For when I, for my freedom and liberty, dream
And suddenly the stars seem to lose their gleam.
And because I am forbidden to cry
I choke back my tears and heavily sigh.
Into the blue ocean, my dream was tossed
This I mull over, my eyes with tears are glossed.
In my heart, loneliness and misery are a true team
A heart - mine - breaks, because freedom in but a dream.
Categories:
choke back, analogy, dream, emotions, sad,
Form:
Rhyme
We fill ourselves up with artificial love
Inviting momentary lust in to fill the void
We trick ourselves into thinking this is what dreams are made of
We crawl into these alluring bed of lies
All the while losing our self respect in the process
We ignore the fact that this entity is our desperation cleverly in disguise
We feed into this superficial mentality
What we have to offer is solely a physical bond
We give in to the social norms while giving up our morality
We live by these standards and start to become hollow
Nothing we partake in seems to have any meaning
We choke back tears and our reality becomes hard to swallow
Lift your head love you have so much more to impart
You are more than what you are given credit for
Please live life to the fullest and follow your heart
I promise you are brighter than the sunshine
You bring happiness and laughter to those around you
So open your heart to the idea and you will be just fine
Categories:
choke back, allusion, lust,
Form:
Free verse
It is dreadfully bitter
The taste of my imprudence
A brackish reminder
Bubbling acrid froth
Impossible
To choke back
Aftershocks heave and pitch my
Shaky foundation
Acid courses over
My
Dreams
Destroying hope of
Amaranthine love
The brine erodes each stone
So well
Etches them with its indifferent regard
Leaving me a caustic cocktail
To slake a ruthless thirst
Nothing is sweet
Everything
Burns
Dreams are best left for dreamers
I will gather stones for my foundation
Categories:
choke back, angst, dark, longing, pain,
Form:
Free verse
I pace. Tension etching lines upon my face
How much longer must I wait?
The clock ticks glumly in the hall
Time passes slowly, no quickly
Oh I don't know
My world moves in slow motion
Waiting for a call
The silence is oppressive
Shadows cast their pall upon the room
I sit, I stand, only to pace again
My heart beats with a quickened cadence
Why hasn't she called?
Why hasn't someone called?
Wait! Was that the phone?
Yes. yes, I hear it
I rush to silence the urgent ring
Hello! Hello!
Yes, this is he
Yes, she is my daughter.
Where is she?
Is she ok? Please, is she ok?
Oh thank God, I've been so worried
I saw it on the news
I hoped, no prayed that she was not there
I didn't know what to do
I was afraid to leave
Are you sure she's ok?
Yes, of course
I'm on my way right now
Thank you, thank you for letting me know
She's not alone is she, is someone with her?
Good, that's good
I'm sorry, I forgot to ask your name
Are you a doctor, yes I thought you were
Will you be going back in to see her?
Would you tell her her dad loves her very much
I shrug my coat around a hollow body
Choke back tears of relief
My little girl is hurt, I need to hold her
A piece of me almost died tonight
I don't have a daughter. I wanted to write about an emotional situation
that I had not actually experienced to see if I could make the reader feel
the rush of emotions exhibited in the poem. Have no idea
if I succeeded.
Categories:
choke back, daughter, father, loss, me,
Form:
Dramatic Monologue
Scars settle on my wrist, recording all my pain
Blood seeps from the new cuts, flowing gently from my arm
Tears running down my face, as I choke back my sobs
Someday I will be free, from the pain that chains me
Categories:
choke back, depression, hope, pain,
Form:
Alexandrine
The words were like a thousand needles to my heart
My soul crumbled and bled as my composure fell apart
I tried to hold my head high and choke back all the pain
But my pride became a memory drowned out by the rain
My will so stubborn and strong
became weak and tierd at the thought of you gone
I had no words to say as the tears fell down my face
I sat only in silence as the judge closed the case
The look in your eye
Will haunt me until I die
twenty five years and you shed not a tear
you smiled at the judge and showed no fear
Your empire was gone
they took everything you owned
but you were loyal to the end to every single friend
your silence was like the steel that they would never bend
even when we were kids and the beatings would set in
You never left my side brother you were loyal to the end
The world so cruel forced your hardended soul
Then they condemned you for learning to be cold
I wish that life had given us the chance to rise above
But how can you kill the hate when you were never shown to love
Prison will never break the bond that family holds so dear
I will stand beside you brother i will always be here
I will accomplish all I've dreamded of
And i will make you proud
You are the only family that I have to love
And I will not be a victim of the crowd
Categories:
choke back, family, words, family, brother,
Form:
Free verse
The world is clawing at the window,
If it's unlocked then you've nothing to fear,
Crawl round the corner and catch your breath,
Won't be long before you start to disappear,
It's too late, much too late,
So surrender as they sleep,
Retching as you release it,
And dig it in deep,
Over and over, scrape it all out,
Everywhere's weeping, choke back a cry,
It's too strong to stand and you're slipping away,
Too exhausted to care and too hopeless to try,
There'll be tears tonight,
There'll be more tomorrow,
If only survival
Could be strengthened by sorrow,
Say goodbye, say goodbye,
Leave this sad scarlet mess,
To find out that the next world's
Unbearable at best,
But nothing matters, no nothing at all,
Don't worry about whether it's wrong or it's right,
You'll welcome the silence when you fade away,
For you won't hear the screams when they turn on the light,
No-one can know why and no-one can listen,
Given up hinting for help falling upon futile ears,
Now you'll never explain how you're feeling and so
Your frustration grows as the funeral nears,
Then the flowers will fall over your remains,
Nailed down in a box and patched up with tape,
And so, even after you've been laid to rest,
You'll still be alone with no means of escape.
Categories:
choke back, angst, death, depression, life,
Form:
Rhyme
With shaking legs and trembling hands
I hesitant to know if for me my time will soon be at hand
Yes, the news is bad as I choke back a sob to bashful and silent
I hear myself whisper "Why Me?"
With needles that prick and poke and bags of poison that force my viens to retract
in the chair I sit looking at others with faces of dispaire and eyes of hope
The only colors we see are of our many scarfs we wear upon our heads
in hiding the shame for the loss of our once beautiful hair
At times we chat about our family and friends
but to never speak of why we are there being the cancer we all share
The effects of the treatment are so harsh and severe
you now know death has made an introduction for your soul
You continue to fight through the pain and sickness while crying in silence
do I give up or should I continue to fight and hope
For some the hope has ended with a bitter fight the battle now lost
For others we still hope to win this fight and I continue to
pray each and every night
Categories:
choke back, cancer, death, depression, grief,
Form:
Free verse