Best Abusive Relationship Poems
Do it have to take violence for me to stay with you?
or is violence all you know?
Do you see me as a puppet?
just play with the strings whenever you like?
or your just scared of being alone.
Did you forget you feel pain like me?
did you forget you have feelings like me?
do you really think I'm so inferior to you?
or do you denied the truth?
beneath those evil ways;
your weak at heart an feel inferior to the world.
Your just a fool,
with meaningless morals,
your so pathetic,
your making yourself suffer.
Continue playing god,
continue having that smirk on your face,
live the life full of regrets,
that won't show you no mercy.
Launch the lecture,
tear me down
to never build me up,
you couldn't build a wall
if a thousand bricks were around.
Time after time,
you watched me fall
as you pushed me over the ledge,
I watched your anger swell.
Living in your shadow
is my personal hell,
memories of a tomorrow
that never came,
I'll never be the same.
I won't let it be in vain.
I look out of the window
into the night,
that room fills me with fright,
this space is still
so full of hate.
The memory of you is more than I can bear,
sometimes it feels like you're still there.
You terrify me,
still to this day
more than anyone sees.
Remembering what shouldn't be,
memories flood the night
through the trees.
These windows hold so many stains,
crying on a floor that
holds so much pain.
Seeping, leaching my soul,
when I crumble
I don't feel whole.
Remembering your face
makes me stumble,
it doesn't carve my path,
even if a memory is all I have.
When it doesn't feel real,
was it a bad dream?
You infiltrate my dreams
in so many shapes.
I fear the end,
what will seal my fate.
I see your smile,
that's what I hate,
so bad it gives me the shakes.
I miss what never was,
a life without you in it.
I pray that one day
it will quit
and I can say goodbye.
I'm afraid of fate,
of ceasing to exist
at the hand of another.
My dreams detonate,
the violence created
from pain so deep seated,
memories plague me,
afraid to take the leap.
Dedicated to my abusive ex.
You broke me
when I wanted to be free.
You broke me
more than anyone sees.
Trauma created loss,
I had to hit pause...
on life,
because continuing
hurt worse than a knife
to my chest,
you tried your best
to destroy me.
Your reach was further than it seemed,
you touched me
with ease.
You poisoned my soul,
you dug me a hole,
so down I fell
everyone could tell.
I felt like a sell out,
like I'm an alcoholic
and you're too stout.
So intense,
you're a true menace...
to society,
but you were my remedy
for so long.
I was so wrong
to trust you,
say it's not true,
how bad you tore me,
wide open
and planted a seed.
I screamed,
I tried to flee,
you held me down
and watched me bleed.
I cry for my mother
because that voice, which is like a shear,
presses its blade unto her skin—
drip — gore oozes from the wound; she doesn’t shed a tear,
but i feel it within.
that voice, which is like a shark,
sinks its teeth around her head—
slowly enough to hear the crunch of her skull,
But i feel it instead.
That voice, which is like a noose,
tightens its rope around her throat—
not even a whisper gets loose,
feeling it too, I’m choked.
I cry for my mother
because that voice used to belong to her lover
but now it cuts her and she suffers,
I wish for a father who loves and loves her
There was once a time
When I was unafraid,
Then I met my match
And my bed was laid.
I was fearless,
Until I was afraid,
I prayed and I prayed,
I fought for my right
To live through the night.
The devil always tried picking fights,
He tore me to shreds with delight,
He took the form of whom I loved
And laughed at me from above,
As he pulled my strings like a puppet,
he yearned for the day I'd die,
for the day I quit trying to fight,
just waiting to shove me into my shallow grave,
But “I hate you,” was always more than he could say.
There was once a time
When I had it all together,
All I had was mine,
I floated through life,
Like a feather,
I’d fly.
Life was so easy,
Until I met my worst enemy,
The thought of him still makes me uneasy,
I wish meeting him hadn’t been my destiny.
I was so full of purpose,
he filled me with his false promises,
turning my life upside down,
like a circus,
he was the ring master
and I completely lost it.
I lost everything that meant something,
I felt as if I wasn't worth anything,
I was angry at everything worldly
and I just wish as I was screaming
that someone heard me.
From fearless to afraid,
I wish I’d stayed
At home where somebody believed in me,
But I was too blind to see.
Everything dear to me was gone,
because of him so much went so wrong,
I lost myself along the way
and I truly thought I'd never live to see another day.
For once in my life,
I was terrified,
as he pulled his knife
and touched it to my throat
he screamed in my face,
"Stab me, kill me or shut the **** up!"
Demoralizing
Love is an addiction, I
Cannot escape you.
I'm not worthless,
I know my worth
and I'm not worth less.
I'm an addict,
not addicted.
I may be a b!#@h,
but I'm not stuck in insanity anymore.
I know that in my core.
Worthless Addict B!#@h is what you called me,
slinging insults was your nitch.
Everyone else could see
how mean you were to me.
Abusive,
only I know what the truth is,
the distrust I felt when you kissed me.
I was the bad guy, always.
When you wouldn't even try.
You hated me and lied
and I never knew why.
I was never out to get you,
I wish you knew.
When you called me worthless,
but I knew you were hopeless
and our relationship was not worth it.
I was reminded that
during every single rage quit hissy fit.
You called me lazy,
but damn boy,
you crazy.
You could talk the talk,
but never walk the walk.
You didn't want to recover
and your eyes were always on another.
You said you loved me,
I refuse to believe
that's what love is.
I never wanted this
and that's why I dipped.
It's not you that I miss.
Your insanity
is far from ordinary,
with you I knew
I could never be happy.
You fueled my already burning trauma,
you created so much drama...
I'm glad I escaped
all of your hate.
I'm blessed that I left
before it was too late.
Walked through this dying town
A Latina that burned buildings down
A vision of grace in a world of gray
A kind of beauty words can't say
Nightmares real and dreams old
A story of sin and virtues sold
Offered a future and a steady hand
A future built on solid land
Looked through me like glass
Waited for her storms to pass
She went with him
Because she wanted to
Tore my heart on cue
Became a woman of a drunk
All her treasures packed
In an old car’s trunk
Trading glory
For a bottle of rye
Under the bleeding
Chickasha sky
She was the biggest whore
The finest in Grady they say
In the ruins of Chickasha
Men lived for her
By the hour - sometimes a month
To hold the beauty I wanted once
A paradox she had it all
But all she could do is crawl
The highest rise and the hardest fall
Whiskey breath on the breeze
Bringing a proud man to his knees
Chose shadows over a name
Chose a bottle over the flame
She said, "I like the warmth of your light
But I need a man who runs in the night
I need the chaos, I need to crawl
I want the one who offers nothing at all"
I had to go, she wished to stay
In the ruins of old Chickasha
The bottle’s empty, the glass cracked
There is no way of turning back
Leaving gold for the shifting sand
With a man who can’t even stand
She went with him
Because she wanted to
Destroyed my heart on cue
The whore of a drunk
Her treasures packed
In an old car’s trunk
Traded her story
For a bottle of rye
Under a bleeding Chickasha sky
The finest whore with nothing to give
Giving it away where the drunks live
Dancing a slow death
In old Chickasha