I HAVE TRIED EVERYTHING TO FEEL ENOUGH
TO DO ENOUGH OF WHAT I AM REQUIRED TO DO
IT IS LIKE PEOPLE ASSUME IM A DUO
I CAN ONLY DO WHAT I CAN
THROUGH IT ALL I COME BACK EXHAUTED.
EXHAUSTION HAS BECOME MY LIFE PARTNER
BUT I STILL WORK HARDER
ONLY TO BE MET BY ANNOYED BACK LASHES
WHAT ELSE CAN A HUMAN DO?
DEPRESSION MET ME RIGHT AFTER
HOSTING PARTIES ALONGSIDE EXHAUSTION
ANXIETY MY LIFE-LONG FRIEND WAS PRIORITISED
?MY MENTAL HEALTH STABLE
OF COURSE NOT
I AM AT A BARE MINIMUM OF MYSELF
STILL BEING BACKLASHED ON MY IMPROVEMENTS
NO COMPLIMENTS, NOTHING
KEEPING THE BRIMMING TEARS AT BAY
NOT TO LONG TILL I FULLY BREAK.
TOO BAD NO ONE IS PERFECT
DO NOT EXPECT PERFECTION FROM MYSELF
NOT A PERFECT CHILD, PARTNER, SIBLING EMPLOYEE OR COLLEGUE
BARE MINIMUM PRESSURE AND MY STRING WILL BREAK
quietly......i'll disagree,
when everything points to dishonesty,
feeding lines, pouring out lies,
to construct its own personal alibies,
gathering masses to fight on behalf,
of the ego, embarrassed by his own immature grasp,
squashing love like a bug under his shoe,
instead of humbling himself to face love's truth,
to love deeper, letting go of the control in his hands,
for in balance, these extremes can ruin a man,
the willing love that stands at the door,
that gets backlashed, pushed out, and knocked on the floor,
and still gets back up to show love more,
but then again and again gets knocked out on the floor,
how much of a beating must one take?,
until the excruciating pain of trying to love makes them walk away,
do you think my God wants me to stay?,
while his child gets mocked for her compassion everyday,
i think not.....in your blank attempt to prove me unfaithful,
by means of your own ego, you tried turning the tables,