Washing up
My hand trembles as I think of what I must do
I have a washing up bowl full of pots and pans to clean it’s the truth
A site so horrid that the devil’s own machinations could not possibly think this through
The flannel has all bean juice on it and there’s no fairy liquid for me to use
This is the seventh circle of hell I think then I look into the cupboard and the sink is leaking causing chaos and dripping gravy stew
You have to man up boy for one day the men of the village will talk of the brave one that washed up that Sunday in 1982
I cleaned those pots and pans till you could see your face in them and the knives and forks and spoons but then I saw the roasting tin and I fainted but I soon came too
This calls for the angle grinder that my dad said “one day you’ll use this” he was not wrong and now I have the shiniest roasting tin in Atherton and in the winter a brilliant sledge woohoo
flat tabletop spreads
lush valleys buttress below
coarse mounds arch above
All these feelings I try to hide
Deep in my heart they all confide
but soon I have to tell
That from the moment I met you I fell
but I'm scared to tell
because I am scared of rejection
I am scared you don't want my affection
It is a feeling that can drive me mad
can make me happy or sad
So confused yet amused
Constantly in a rut
an antagonizing feeling in my gut.
I am so scared to say
that I feel this way
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Feet keep moving back and forth I can not stop
I am getting tired but I just keep racing
I'll keep running till I find what I seek
I want my heart to start pacing
Swiftly I keep running
I don't want to slow down
I will not stop anytime soon
I want to go till what I want is found
I want to awake who I once was
The person who smiled and was carefree
I want to make you happy again
I want to find the old me
But before I can do this I must find you
My feelings for you grew
I will keep pressing on in my mind
Love you are what I want to find
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One last chance
One final glance
I want to show
That I am someone you'd like to know
So unique
To me please speak
Words from a tender lip
Can forever equip
Me with hope
No longer with fear I shall cope
Say to me I am all you need
So we can then proceed
I want to be the reason you smile
Girl, you are oh so nubile
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The tears fall down like rain
Not waking up to you drive me insane
The now so dark abyssal nights
Is not worth the drinking and our fights
I wish I could be a better man
I wish I could change my ways
Now that I am missing the one thing that made me happy
I am blind to reality, in a haze
I want to rewind
I want to show you I can be kind again
I am tired of sleeping alone
Baby, I wish you would just come home
Or at least, I wish I could hear your voice on the phone
I wish I could be a better man
I wish I could change my ways
Now that I am missing the one thing that made me happy
I am blind to reality, in a haze
It's not easy knowing I could have changed all this
That we would still be happy, and your lips I could kiss
I just want you back, it is you I miss
I wish I could be a better man
I wish I could change my ways
Now that I am missing the one thing that made me happy
I am blind to reality, in a haze
I stopped my ways for you
But you are long gone
I just hope to not repeat my ways
I want to meet someone else in future days
And never go back to old ways
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A feeling of betrayal
To which no one would like to avail
To give out and never get back
To want more but more is what you lack
Turned down
With a permanent frown
Walk away
And never talk or say
Of how bad that made you feel
And how this hurt is unreal
This is rejection
Almost the opposite of affection
Leads you towards another direction
I hate the feeling of rejection
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When nothing is going your way
When you can truly sit there and say
You hate your life
I want to be there for you in your time of strife
I don't want you to be so alone
So relax with me and become prone
Prone to bad intent
To sit with me and vent
I'll hold you tight if need be
I am a close friend you will see
Cry on my shoulder
I will sit and hold her
Let everything out
No longer cry and pout
Look up at me
I want you to see
I will always be here for you
Of this will always be deemed true
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-Matthan C. Atherton
As I kiss you upon the brown
Stare into my glowing eyes now
I will tell you of many nights
While I ponder your many fights
Pointless they may be
But it led you to knowing me
As I embrace you with another kiss
Thoughts of us wonder amiss
Deeper into your eyes I confide
And behind your walls I run and hide
I will hold you tight and dear
Look into my eyes do not fear
A new experience awakens for us
Just go with it and do not ponder
Because thoughts of us will never wander
I wonder where life will take us now
For you I will always endow
For new life is within us now
Ever since I kissed your brow
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A aching in my heart weary
A beautiful night gone dead and dreary
Tonight I got a call
I thought we had it all
When I saw who it was a smile came to me
I couldn't wait to talk and see
What all you had to say
When you were done my face went grey
I can't imagine what I didn't do
I gave it all to you
But it wasn't enough
After the phone call I went through our stuff
Pictures of now dead memories
Clothes left for dust
I thought we had it all
But tonight into the abyss I fall
(On my myspace also)
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-Matthan C. Atherton
What are the right words to say
I hate this because whatever way
I try to ask this question
I get nothing but a simple remark
All I want is you to feel a spark
Something that will make you like me
Whatever this something may be
I want you to see
What all I can do
And I'll do it all for you
I just wish all this was easy
Getting into relationship is complicated
I am scared to get a straight answer from you
A yes will make me happy
But a no means I have to forever let go
I am almost happier where I am
I am scared to change what we have
I just wish there were more
And that you I could hold and adore
Stuck at point A
Longing for point B
I'll just have to wait and see
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-Matthan C. Atherton
Empty at heart
Forever torn apart
Belonging to she
But she left me
Slammed is that door
She is no more
Left without a trace
I am left a disgrace
This was my fear come true
Now I am oh so blue
Sitting alone in this house
So quiet I would hear a mouse
Trapped inside this feeling
The house is slowly peeling
Crumbling down is all I know
Ever since she just let go
(On my myspace also)
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You walked away today
Because there was nothing left to say
We had lost everything we had
I am left in this house alone and sad
I lay awake tonight
And in my head I think back to our fight
I am sorry for everything said
Those words are dead
I know your not coming back
And you is what I surely lack
This kingdom changed
I am so estranged
Moving on won't be an ease
You would always please
I was so excited to see you day to day
I was so excited to look at you and say
I love you
It was true
But now that is besides the point
This pains aches my every joint
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-Matthan C. Atherton
(On my myspace also)
I think today would be a good day to let go
This affection and lust for you is just starting to grow
Delete all trace of you
E-Mail,number, text
All this has me so vexed
We hardly even know each other
But I had grown to like you
I want to give you it all
But right now I'll sit back and fall
Deeper in my heart these feelings confide
And forever they I shall hide
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-Matthan C. Atherton
Clear waters
Open up for me
In the palm of your hand
White sand shores
That forever will be adored
In the palm of your hand
Mysterious oceans
Open up our emotions
In the palm of your hand
Now run along with me
And forever we will be
Together and unbothered
Next to the sea
And I will be your man
Hold tight to my right hand
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-Matthan C. Atherton
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