I don’t like this place!
Dark. Sad. Alone
Energy around me
Illuminates excitement
Smiles. Laughter. Life
The spirit within
Try’s to grasp
Joyful moments
But the disconnect is -
Powerful
I ask over and over
Why am I sad?
Nothing comes to light
No voice. No idea of
Why my world
Seemingly
So full of life
Is dead and empty
October 25, 2021
~Ms. Affection
Categories:
ask over, emotions, lonely, sad,
Form: Free verse
frost covers my mind
a crisp unforgiving thought
protecting me from another
thought grows rapidly
I worry
that it grows too fast
rushing past me I yell STOP!
but the thought doesn't listen
too fast
too loud
Wait!
I cry, in frenzied fear
frozen but unprotected
it is already past
why do I still see and feel it?
I ask over and over
it's just a memory
Categories:
ask over, anxiety,
Form: Narrative
There are times when I see the radiance of the sun
And I’m reminded of you when it dips
Out of sight
Like you
But the radiance remains
Ever so visible
In dreams I scuttle with reptilian figures
That make your skin crawl
Demons take up residence
They transfer reality with worn out carpets, broken records
They ask over and over why
Why you didn’t love me enough to stay
Your description of me is lodged in my universe:
I wear animal skins, high heels and pink tights, I’m six feet tall
And men are afraid of me
When the sun climbs the trellis,
The sunflowers raise their giant heads
I stand next to them in the light,
And the reptiles hide under rocks
Categories:
ask over, death, universe,
Form: Prose Poetry
My heart is overflowing, my time with you a pleasure.
No need to thank me for the flowers.
You'll be ok.
My time is of a premium, not enough to go around.
Why do you not look me in the eye.
Are you alright.
My head feels tight. It's pounding and pulsating.
Why do you ask over and over.
It's not your fault.
My red eyes sting from crying and sleep. No sleep.
Why are you shouting. I'm trying to help you.
You're not to blame.
My patience is dwindling. Nerves stripped raw.
Why does everything I do and say upset you so.
You cannot help it.
My head is imploding. My chest heaving. My control lost.
Why are the slippers no good. They are a perfect fit. I wanted you to love them.
Can you please try a little harder.
My mind feels unattached. My heart is heavy.
Why are you not shouting any more.
I'm sorry.
Categories:
ask over, sorry, heart, heart, me,
Form: Free verse
When i close my eyes in my bed
another night i dream with dred
i remember that icy cold stare
so empty and hollow that's all that's there
I can feel my heart racing as you walk near
i tremble with fear
The smell of liquor and ciggerettes on your skin
whisky ,vodka,rum and lets not forget gin
I ask over and over what did i do
because i truly don't have a clue
Walking backwards, i am againts the wall
my head jerks hard my face on fire
the next ones just a little higher
I hear my hair being ripped from my head
the way you think i should be led
Throwing my down like an old rag doll
screaming for help,no one can hear me call
Gasping for breath, gasping for hair
i see your face that dosen't care
Grasping at your hands trying to push you away
i begin to black out ,i begin to sway
As i wake screaming please stop hurting me
but you don't listen to my plea
Walking away i hear you say , by the way Happy Valentines Day
I jump up all soaking wet
completely drenched in sweat
Nights are so long when your afraid to sleep
a tear trickles down as i weep...........
Categories:
ask over, sad
Form: Rhyme
It's not your fault
I make myself insane
It's not your fault
As to why I cause myself all this pain
It's not your fault
I'm so crazy over you
It's not your fault
I'm alone and so blue
It's not your fault
So much time has gone by
It's not your fault
I sit around and ask over and over again why
It's not your fault
I'm not sure for your love I should even try
It's not your fault
I constantly cry
It's not your fault
You don't want to talk to me
It's not your fault
What is right in front of me that I just won't see
It's not your fault
I feel this way
It's not your fault
I feel this every single day
It's not your fault
You have your doubts
It's not your fault
I see no way out
It's not your fault
To you I gave my heart
It's not your fault
Why we broke apart
It's not your fault
That it's you I long to hold
it's not your fault
As to why my life unfolds
It's not your fault
For me this may never go away
It's not your fault
That I really must tell you the words I need so much and waited far to long to say
It's not your fault
I now have to turn around to go away
And yes I know
It's not your fault
That I will always be in love with you so
Categories:
ask over, angst, depression, devotion, lost
Form: Romanticism