Zombie ~oh To Dream Again~

Dead Yet still alive Still breathing Beating pulse You could call me a living dead A zombie. Day by day Just trying to get through Sleeping without dreaming With no promise of tomorrow But if I did dream it would all be worse Because I would close my eyes and see your face And that would not help my condition. In my world The sun never shines Not because it is hidden by clouds, no It has failed me Ran away There is no moon No stars Not even clouds Just a blank white sky. Numb I wasn’t happy Nor was I sad I wasn’t angry or bitter Though I was previous to my death Now I’m just numb I long to feel something Anything. I’ve ran out of tears to cry I ran out of reasons to smile Living a life that’s not worth living In a world where I don’t belong I don’t fit in I never will I’ve always been different And in the eyes of others Different is scary. So I do my best to go unnoticed It is painfully easy When your out of the minds of everyone Easily forgotten If ever thought of to begin with If I were to disappear No one would care No one would dare cry It’s a sad fact of life At least mine. I’ve been fighting this for so long I’m beginning to tire of this battle Oh how I could just give up Just to rest Permanently. I close my eyes Shut them tight As I slowly begin to fade away Leaving the world around me I open my eyes To the sun on my face In the open blue sky I smile I’m at peace I’ll dream a dream that is already coming true And that dream would be of you Only to wake up with a promise of tomorrow.