You Were Never There

You Were Never there At night I sat and wonder Just how some things can be? And I try to understand Everything I see. Each night my pillow Is wet with lonely tears, And I say to myself, do He understand what I feel? When I struggle through life, I could never feel That you care. The days that I hurt inside You were never there. I push my way Through heart ache, Sadness, and pain, When I needed you the most; You left me standing In the rain. Cold and lonely nights I snuggle in bed While visions of you Flash through my head. Did you see it in my eyes, And did you even care? When I needed you The most, you Were never there. I gave you a family I made the perfect wife, I prayed hard for you Each and every night. I struggle with this pain, In my own selfish way And I dreamed every night That you would Somehow stay; Now the time has come That I have to let go, It’s killing me inside, More than you will ever know. When I look at your picture I can’t help but stare The answer is plain and clear; You were never there.