You are Safe now Dear
Trying to remind myself that I'm safe
knowing I'm on the verge of crashing
traumatic events forced upon my space
terrorist threats identity fraud blinding
pain I try and focus on positive things
you know I safe place triggers invade
my thinking I'm being bullied because
identity thieves attempting to extort
my American poetry corrupt officers
niece resulting from my wearing wires
pregnant for the FBI buying weapons
and drugs from junk sick cops because
Ciro Gargano torched 9 persons alive
with my abusive ex husband trauma
of a car bomb igniting my skull
my life was in grave danger several
attempts as I'm in a safe place and
yet the killers arrived two decades
later the anniversary of the murder
meant for me intimidating me over
my American poetry my brain hurt
my chest hurt I cannot stop panting
I hate my PTSD and anxiety disorder
the worse because of the uncontrollable
panic attacks i am totally isolating again
I wish I never met Ciro Gargano I never
would have witnessed terror and cursed
myself with wearing wires pregnant
for the FBI sometimes I hear there
voices just saying it's going to be okay
funny right i fear having another
nervous break down what a blessed
so many troops were helping me
cope asking me if I served in the
gulf war because of my illness
my head is throbbing from
the traumatic headaches brought
on by my anxiety reliving domestic
violence I have to take
my medicine and try to stay relaxed
talk therapy keeps me focused writing
poetry helps me relive trauma calmly
kind of like writing in my journal
which thieves broke in and ripped
pages wow I feel so broken fragile
not a good feeling it's frightening
you are safe now dear truly
I am safe now I feel safe now
Written by Mrs Yolanda Joy Nicholsen
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