Writing Poetry

Grief has made my world darker for a time I have lost a huge part of my family, someone who left this world way too early I have felt some guilt about not being about not being able to stop it I have felt overwhelmed by the strong emotions that such a loss entails and the world has felt so much less beautiful without my beloved Josh in it But God has held me close in his arms and sent friends and family to me, when I thought I would drown in my own sorrow God has given me words to write and express the pain and sorrow that I have felt that I could not express orally I could literally not form sentences to say what I have been able to write I think that has helped me so much, to be able to get the pain from my heart onto the page I have attempted to write every day for a month and I did not succeed, but being able to write at all is a HUGE accomplishment I WILL not beat myself up for not doing it every day, I WILL be grateful that I have this outlet when there have been times in the past that grief has dried up my words and I was not able to write at all Poetry is a lovely part of my life, but my poetry has not been lovely lately, it has been raw and emotional and full of pain and loss but it has calmed my soul and heart in a way that nothing else has I am grateful for poetry in my life I am grateful for people following my painful journey by reading my poetry and I am grateful for everyone in my life who has reached out to help me in my time of sorrow Most of all, I am grateful that I have faith and I am surrounded by people that love me and most of all God’s love and care that has kept me breathing, living, and writing