Worthless

Worthless.
That's what I thought of myself.
The things that you did to me,
But I'm the one saying sorry.
The other day, mom asked me to press charges.
I said no.
Not for you.
Not for me.
You've had charges pressed before.
Your own sister.
The court did nothing. 
She was 6 and you admitted to doing it for years.
I guess you had a type. 
You assaulted my cousin, and you assaulted me. 
When people ask if we're cousins, I have a knot in my throat.
Because yes, we're technically cousins but not after what you did to me.
What you did to us.
For years I've lived in denial.
The truth just recently broke out.
I have my first therapy session tomorrow.
I haven't gone for years, because if I meant nothing to you...
Why would I mean anything to anyone else too.
I have hated myself. 
I have struck myself down for not speaking up earlier.
Because maybe if I did say something, you wouldn't have done what you did to me, to her.
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Morris Avatar
April 11, 2023 at 2:21 AM
Thank you for sharing this moving, thought-provoking poem. I hope that you regain your sense of self and know that you are worthy of love, kindness, dignity and respect. Family are those who care for us; and they don't need to be related by DNA. Best wishes for healing, love and light. You are free. :-)
Agustin Avatar
March 2, 2023 at 4:10 AM
Thanks for sharing this... exposing your thoughts of sad reality through your unique poetic style. Welcome to Poetry Soup. I welcome you with the love of the Lord, expressed by John 3:16 of the Bible, "For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life." God bless you.
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February 28, 2023 at 11:25 PM
WOW Connor…what a terribly sad tale. Your poem made me really emotional. I hope you get through the damage, destruction and pain and all else you are dealing with thats been inflicted on you at the hands of such an evil creature. I am so sorry you are suffering Connor….sending kindness and a cuddle. Debx
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