Will I Ever Be the Same

Will I ever be the same? It seems everything RELATES! I'm stuck in a memory of what was, and I don't know if I will ever ESCAPE? How can I replace the only person that ever UNDERSTOOD!? How do I accept someone else... hoping that maybe they COULD! There are so many memories that I want to forget, and even more that I choose to KEEP! I wish that I could choose the memories that stayed as well as the ones that I bury down DEEP! As you say love is a battlefield, and yes we earned our SCARS! Its ironic that you taught me self defense, how to box and SPAR! I never thought you were the one that I should FEAR, but you were the one that had to leave when all I wanted was for you to stay HERE! How will I ever RECOVER? How will I ever love ANOTHER?! You changed my life in ways tragic and MIRACULOUS. The love we had I thought was FABULOUS. Did I not UNDERSTAND? Did I just fall for what you had actually PRE-PLANNED? How do I feel again that INTENSITY? How do I believe that someone else is truthful in what appears to be their SENSITIVITY? These questions I ask knowing you cannot ANSWER! "You are dead to me." No, that is not an ANALOGY! You and I are not allowed to TALK! You may be gone but your not FORGOT! The last petal I picked was he loves me NOT!