Wilderness Behaviors
It's not that I mistrust you,
though sometimes I feel I must distrust
either me or you.
I ambivalently choose both.
So yes, of course, this is about your behaviors
in trust-relationship with mine,
aggressive and impulsive.
Behaviors of addiction
to a child's malignant sense of humor
and anger as synaptic fear
of loving inalienable powers of freedom
from and to yet further behaviors,
too often aggressive and impulsive,
too seldom shy and demure
as water flowing into deeper gravitas.
Behaviors inspired by Assertiveness Training
on steroids,
mainlining a fix
to fill recent behavioral abstinence,
dreams and fantasies standing in for life,
addiction to action
not counting absent minutes of no behaviors
other than beating bicameral heart
and breathing bilateral lungs.
Do not remind me
"actions have consequences."
How is this not a vacuous tautology?
merely repeating response meets stimulus,
nouns regenerate verbs
as subjects pursue objectives,
mindful and thoughtless,
actively felt
and distractedly unfe.
We do not really need dualistic behaviorists
as much as we crave nondual interpreters of organic systems,
feeding those with cooperative intent and, yes, behaviors,
breeding action, response, as praxis,
walking a cooperative win/win walk
outspeaks talking a competing win/lose game
of my good v. your bad behavior.
Hoping for better health next year
while pouring chemicals on our lawns
and down our throats
feels like an ecotherapist observing toxic relationships,
enumerating nutritional transactions,
despising monocultural weedpatch unhealthy trends,
counting numbers of deadly demerits through lovely merits
in minutes passed beyond reach of each,
only to conclude that actions,
like inactions,
have consequences,
and lack thereof.
Behaviors ebb and flow ionic,
nondual co-arising bionic,
as communication reiterates iconic truths
of history's wild supremacist addictions
fighting freedoms to develop democratic love,
sometimes more MotherTree forested quietly
Unsung freedom from addiction
to aggressive win/lose impulses
to share loveless fear,
lonely forgiveless anger,
obsessively fearful compulsive love,
in life's conflicted ways,
supported by ecotherapists
of inter-reconnecting health/pathology communication
rather than behaviorists of counting
endless predictable cycles
of destimulating response.
It's not so much I distrust behaviorists as scientists,
though sometimes I mistrust nondual us.
Failure to control individualistic
and nationalistic AnthroMind
EarthBody co-empowering impulses,
resulting in anger-induced responses
and fear-reduced reactions,
is a failure to control climate resilience
through indulging competitively dissonant addictions.
Regeneratively effective healers speak not as mere
LeftBrain verbal dominant behaviorists;
co-mentors emerge re-ligioned within polypathic pilgrimages
toward better communicated enlightenment,
sometimes shy and demure,
but always nondual cooperative love-management intended,
most certainly always, always indigenously kind,
though nature's kin co-teaching/learning evolution
can feel harsh to swollen Ego's undanced
unromanced and sacred rooted feet,
walking in habitual circles
toward nowhere good
or true
much less divine.
What good are a child's safe hands
with no safe mind?
What benefits emerge from kind and loving hands
tagging along with healthy motivated feet
to sustain ecologically balancing mindbody co-operators,
solidarity and synergy
of EarthTribe's EcoMentors,
too busy managing our bugs and parasitic ways
to build political economic integrity of surfing sand.
I distrust myself
when reduced to behaviorist judge
of self v dynsfunctionally afflicted Others.
I trust us to induce healthy communication
of lovely song
as health-danced life,
robust EarthRe-ligions
peaks of renouned health
hiding in active valleyed wombs
of sacred EarthMother wealth.
Copyright © Gerald Dillenbeck | Year Posted 2016
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