Wilderness Behaviors

It's not that I mistrust you, though sometimes I feel I must distrust either me or you. I ambivalently choose both. So yes, of course, this is about your behaviors in trust-relationship with mine, aggressive and impulsive. Behaviors of addiction to a child's malignant sense of humor and anger as synaptic fear of loving inalienable powers of freedom from and to yet further behaviors, too often aggressive and impulsive, too seldom shy and demure as water flowing into deeper gravitas. Behaviors inspired by Assertiveness Training on steroids, mainlining a fix to fill recent behavioral abstinence, dreams and fantasies standing in for life, addiction to action not counting absent minutes of no behaviors other than beating bicameral heart and breathing bilateral lungs. Do not remind me "actions have consequences." How is this not a vacuous tautology? merely repeating response meets stimulus, nouns regenerate verbs as subjects pursue objectives. We do not really need dualistic behaviorists as much as we crave nondual interpreters of patterns, feeding those with cooperative intent and, yes, behaviors, but action, response, as praxis, walking a cooperative walk outspeaks talking a competing game of good v. bad behavior. Hoping for better health next year while pouring chemicals on our lawns and down our throats feels like an ecotherapist observing toxic relationships, enumerating nutritional transactions, despising monocultural weedpatch development trends, counting numbers of deaths v. births through minutes passed, only to conclude that actions, like inactions, have consequences, and lack thereof. Behaviors ebb and flow ionic, nondual co-arising bionic, as communication reiterates iconic truths of history's encultured wild addictions fighting freedoms to develop love, sometimes more quietly, freedom from addiction to aggressive impulses to share this love and fear, lovely fear, fearful love, in life's conflicted ways, supported by ecotherapists of interactive health/pathology communication rather than behaviorists of counting endless predictable cycles of destimulating response. It's not so much I distrust behaviorists as scientists, though sometimes I mistrust nondual us. Failure to control global and national mindbody impulses, resulting in anger-induced responses and fear-reduced reactions, is a failure to control climate sustainability through indulging competitive addictions. Regeneratively effective healers speak not as mere behaviorists; co-mentors emerge baptized within polypath pilgrimages toward better communicated enlightenment, sometimes shy and demure, but always nondual cooperative love-management intended, most certainly always, always kind, though nature's kind co-teaching/learning evolution can feel harsh to swollen Ego's feet, walking in habitual circles toward nowhere good or true much less divine. What good are a child's safe hands with no safe mind? What benefits emerge from kind and loving hands tagging along with healthy motivated feet to sustain ecologically balancing mindbody co-operators, solidarity of EarthTribe's EcoMentors, too busy managing our bugs and parasitic ways to build political economic empires of surfing sand. I distrust myself when reduced to behaviorist judge of self and others. I trust us to induce healthy communication of love as life, robust through healthy wealth.