Wilderness Behaviors

It's not that I mistrust you, though sometimes I feel I must distrust either me or you. I ambivalently choose both. So yes, of course, this is about your behaviors in trust-relationship with mine, aggressive and impulsive. Behaviors of addiction to a child's malignant sense of humor and anger as synaptic fear of loving inalienable powers of freedom from and to yet further behaviors, too often aggressive and impulsive, too seldom shy and demure as water flowing into deeper gravitas. Behaviors inspired by Assertiveness Training on steroids, mainlining a fix to fill recent behavioral abstinence, dreams and fantasies standing in for life, addiction to action not counting absent minutes of no behaviors other than beating bicameral heart and breathing bilateral lungs. Do not remind me "actions have consequences." How is this not a vacuous tautology? merely repeating response meets stimulus, nouns regenerate verbs as subjects pursue objectives, mindful and thoughtless, actively felt and distractedly unfe. We do not really need dualistic behaviorists as much as we crave nondual interpreters of organic systems, feeding those with cooperative intent and, yes, behaviors, breeding action, response, as praxis, walking a cooperative win/win walk outspeaks talking a competing win/lose game of my good v. your bad behavior. Hoping for better health next year while pouring chemicals on our lawns and down our throats feels like an ecotherapist observing toxic relationships, enumerating nutritional transactions, despising monocultural weedpatch unhealthy trends, counting numbers of deadly demerits through lovely merits in minutes passed beyond reach of each, only to conclude that actions, like inactions, have consequences, and lack thereof. Behaviors ebb and flow ionic, nondual co-arising bionic, as communication reiterates iconic truths of history's wild supremacist addictions fighting freedoms to develop democratic love, sometimes more MotherTree forested quietly Unsung freedom from addiction to aggressive win/lose impulses to share loveless fear, lonely forgiveless anger, obsessively fearful compulsive love, in life's conflicted ways, supported by ecotherapists of inter-reconnecting health/pathology communication rather than behaviorists of counting endless predictable cycles of destimulating response. It's not so much I distrust behaviorists as scientists, though sometimes I mistrust nondual us. Failure to control individualistic and nationalistic AnthroMind EarthBody co-empowering impulses, resulting in anger-induced responses and fear-reduced reactions, is a failure to control climate resilience through indulging competitively dissonant addictions. Regeneratively effective healers speak not as mere LeftBrain verbal dominant behaviorists; co-mentors emerge re-ligioned within polypathic pilgrimages toward better communicated enlightenment, sometimes shy and demure, but always nondual cooperative love-management intended, most certainly always, always indigenously kind, though nature's kin co-teaching/learning evolution can feel harsh to swollen Ego's undanced unromanced and sacred rooted feet, walking in habitual circles toward nowhere good or true much less divine. What good are a child's safe hands with no safe mind? What benefits emerge from kind and loving hands tagging along with healthy motivated feet to sustain ecologically balancing mindbody co-operators, solidarity and synergy of EarthTribe's EcoMentors, too busy managing our bugs and parasitic ways to build political economic integrity of surfing sand. I distrust myself when reduced to behaviorist judge of self v dynsfunctionally afflicted Others. I trust us to induce healthy communication of lovely song as health-danced life, robust EarthRe-ligions peaks of renouned health hiding in active valleyed wombs of sacred EarthMother wealth.