Wild Domicile

I prefer my home and family buttoned down rather than too wild and disorderly, disheveled and irrational. I prefer natural order and shades of color and dialects and economic/political vocations and sequential rules of nutrition-producing order, and yet wonder, too. I have been hurt by too much wild struggling against my too much gay internal loss of homophobia, struggling with We fear and Me anger about my too-wild sexuality, might self-recruit toward loving bisexuality, poly and/or meta-sexuality, a co-arising ecopolitical co-gravitation without fear and anger lose/lose boundaries might open my closed-pen toward boundless win/win love. Too wild these fears and angers scare me, preferring my home and family more panentheistically transformed to integrally button down our polypathic sacred wild.