Why Was I

Why this journey has become painful day after day, Was this supposed to burn all the sins out of me? Was this supposed to enlighten me and bring me out of this darkness? Why nobody speak to me, Why nobody tell me, Why nobody come near me, and sit right next to me? Why I always ended up crying, disappointing, frustrating? Why I always didn't get whatever I want? Why this has to be so painful? Why this feeling has to make this whole entire journey not wonderful? Was this all because of my past mistakes? Was it all because of me? Why nobody answering me?