Why, Oh Why, Do You Have To Scream Goodbye

Why, oh why, do you have to scream goodbye? I know things are difficult, I know I never had a chance. But I truly do think that, even though all the things we've been through, that I may of fallen in love with you. I know it's bad, I know you don't even want to look at me. But most of all, I know. I know all those feelings couldn't of just gotten up, and walked away. I know that you still have to have some feelings for me. I just can't fathom the thought that you don't. The reason I do bad things, is you. The reason I cry, is you. You don't know it... but you've secretly destroyed my life. You've destroyed my hope, my love, my feeling, my conscience. You've torn me apart. Every last bone of mine is showing and my blood is gushing. I'm tattered. I'm lost and confused. I'm waiting... for you to leave and walk out of my life forever. But I know I can't handle it... I know I'll think about you everyday. I wish things would be different. Why, oh why, do you have to scream goodbye?