Why Me

Why Me, why do I deserve what I have, my life, I haven't done anything special, to deserve to be held, embraced, Why Me? I AM just another human on this planet trying to survive. Why Me, I am too quiet, too shy, too numb, to feel what motherhood has been like, Why Me, I doubt I have any special talents, I'm slow to learn, slow to feel, people saying "I love You", Is that real? I HAVE lived a terrible past, my tears have all been shed, my face is facing downwards, as to not see others judgemental looks, do they see inside me, seeing my many mistakes? Why Me, Do I really deserve all these blessed feelings? DO I really have an a caring husband who has been my rock for the past twenty some years? Yet, her I am, a mother of two kids, what do I have to offer? WHY NOT ME? I am here to say Yes to all the above questions, if you have had tough times, made some mistakes, I'm here to tell you "your not alone". All you ha e to remember is, get up each and every day, take a deep breath, look out the window, and be thankful that you are alive, you are here for a reason...What that is, is for you alone to figure out, only you can let the sunshine in. Why Me, because I want to make a difference e in this world, and be a wonderful mom to my kids. "Where ever you go, there you are".