Why Love Sucks

Apparently I'm a lying, cheating good for nothing and yeah, I need to work on myself alot. But this is why love scares me Love scares me because...... Once you see all my faults.....they become major red flags, I'm not actually this horrible person. I have a heart who loves them in such away that I know no one could love them the same way.....or maybe that's the whole point. I told you it wouldn't be hard to forget about me Loving my smell scares me.... because no one has ever felt that way Love scares me because.......when I started to let that person in and the previous night they said they will love me no matter what, they in not exact words, were listing all my faults and backed off and I realize that I had let that person in on the one promise I made myself which was to never let someone in that deep and surprise surprise, they didn't like what they saw. That person also I now know, saw past all the faults I had never let anyone and I mean ANYONE and that was the very thing that unleashed all of this. I told that person that im not worth it and now I was right. Now that person is falling for someone, they don't care about me, they don't want me and they are happy not talking to me ... I will forever love her but silently because its too late now, l will love her silently and from a distance she will never see. Oh god, do I love her. Love her more than she can see, taste or smell. Our last kiss etched in my mind for only me too see. I love you miss green. P.s she's the most beautiful women you will ever see