Why Don'T You

I think about my mom evry night i wish me and her didn't have to fight i love her so much she doesn't even know she tells me i am retarded and slow i miss my mom everyday i love you lesa is what i dream she would say but instead she calls me a bunch of names and tells me that me and my foster parents are lames i don't understand why she hates me so or why it is so easy to let me go but if hating me makes her feel better then i will stop writing her these stupid letters.