Why and why

Why did I still care about, some one who had passed away, Or still alives but has already out of my life. Let say there was always, Two sides of each coin. What everyone saw, might not be all. To me, passed away or staying alived, Was only a matter of what in my mind. The physical appearance of a person could help, But it was the meaningful memories, That lived in my mind, That helped keeping the friendship alived. The relationships ended But the true love and feelings, Last as long as I nurtured them. Of course, it was obviously, A one way traffic only. I respected A for what he did for me unconditionally. A decade of friendship would last as long as l shall live. I have had his loves and cares, While still consumed by grieves, Of my personal circumstances. I loved B because he Brought the best out of me. He had indirectly helped me Reliving my innocent and naive youth, Which I did not have while strugglling: To escape my home country; To settle in Australia as a refugee; To learn English to overcome the language barrier. BB, you had enabled me, To enjoy the simple fun loving relationship, What a peaceful domestic life was liked, How happy I could be in your company. You also helped me realising something, That many professionals could not explain. Although your final decisions and actions, Had hurt me a great deal, But your good deeds out weighted your selfish acts. I forgave you so I could forget you. I believed in a saying "One might not be able to Remember someone forever, But one will never forget someone, Who caused all the pain and aches." Again, there were another side of story. Although I could not help missing BB terribly, I do not want to remember him forever, Therefore, I did not want to have Any negative feelings toward him, The lesser I upset about BB, The sooner I could forget him. Having said all that, I still love him surely and stupidly. Only God knows, why I loved him. BB, do you know why and why? Why did I love you and Why did I want to forget you. Only you know why.