Why Am I So Alone

sitting in the dark , realizing i'm in my thoughts. wondering if there's anymore strength in me. i'm in a dark place , a dark room. dark eyes , dark thoughts. dark hair , dark socks. i'm alone , i feel alone. i'm empty, i seem to do everything wrong. i just want happiness , a little laughter from here or there. but i'm drained, depressed, feeling sick inside. just want somebody there to notice me, to hold me. i feel i'm always a problem , always a heartache. i'm lost because i'm literally on my own , in my mind. cause i feel weak and faint. if i fall and full of blank and once i wake ill see who's there who's open to me. wh'os there for me ... or maybe who loves me ... i Stand Alone ... -F.Sing