Why Am I Not Better Yet

Why am I not better yet? I’ve stopped eating, Stopped thinking The clock is ticking Faster, faster The days are blending together I’ve cried too many tears I’ve lost too many friends I’ve ran out of sleep My hands are shaking My legs are bouncing My hair hasn’t been washed My teeth are yellow Why am I not better? I’m drowning in my own tears I’m ill and no one is helping This illness isn’t what it seems It’s blood dripping down my arms It’s tears being shed nightly It’s the thought of being dead It’s thoughts of hating myself Is this all life has in store for me? Why am I not better yet?