Why

Why do I go threw this life knowing I have no purpose, Wife friends family around me tell me that I'm worthless. I have felt alone for far to long, life on repeat like a song overplayed, sometimes I wonder if I have over welcomed my stay. Why was I put aside from the rest cuz I'm not normal,well I say im blessed when god made me I was to be different from all the rest. Why is it everyday I cant seem to get it right constantly battling these demons in my head every ing night. Hard to sleep always turning in the sheets evil presence everywhere has me in defeat