Whole
i hold this blade to my chest
and hope over hope
i won’t have to stop
this pain with pain
i will not feel the urge tonight
i won’t sink into this hole
i haven’t built an escape route from.
ladders require two
and i cannot have another;
this one is far too much
so the tears flow down
to mix with blood long gone
long spilled and spilled long
gashes cuts long
herstory analysis at my turns
theories at my doorstep
i look inside
and find it hard to see
the me that clutches
this silver to her breast
who breathes a sigh
when all else fails and pain
is felt.
it’s hard to see this me
who tears this she
to nothing more
than shreds of a forgotten yes
a lost promise
i sew however
and when i’m put together
i shine like new
sure some pieces ordered wrong and
sure i cut some down to size
but as far as cutting goes
it suits my purpose
so i continue
i see something
more yet always less
of who this me really is
has yet to be
and when my vision comes at last
i clutch a blade to my chest
this silver to my breast
a sliver of sanity
that easily throws me
into the abyss
i wonder those fatal questions
and know that mortality
is most fully realized
when it proves you wrong.
proves that when all else fails
and your sigh is released
there’s still no escape
from the hole
you’ve dug yourself inside.
Copyright © Allison Kinzy | Year Posted 2007
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