Who Was I Suppose To Be.

When we meet I was young dumb and full of fun, you were out of my league with a smile that melted me away, out of my mind I scrambled to make you mine, as I sit and smile ...our first kiss I remember that day. restless to life and it's meaning still after three years, all the tears and times caught us naked to a new life, a boy to enrich our state of minds a child who needed time, now a family I took a vowel to grow up as I took you as my wife, through the seasons I soon found no reason, the boy you meet was becoming the man you seen, working hard at growing up even slipping, man it was tough, always noticing on the other side the grass was green, still I moved forward to be who I need to be, six years later a daughter to reward us and make us four, Daddy,was all I heard I was now a father I never had, no longer ugly and mean to him I turn and locked that door, years have past and me soft as silk and full of trust, I was no longer that boy who set your heart free, merely a dad you loved and for another you lust, no loner the catch I was and so trusting I couldn't see, now I sit heart broken in two love's,-life's little fool, a man who thought he had it all wife kids a good job, a family man isn't superman he's just a guy to have, sitting here wondering what went wrong as I sob, no wonder another stole my thunder, I'm crying, writing a poem of love and wonder, I smiled and smelt the flowers even enjoying the thunder, here I sit all alone and your gone with another.