Who cares

Boat un the sea I talked to the devil I talked to a saint I asked for peace for some of my days I know what she sees when she looks at my face is the same part of me I'd like to erase. I'm not really here I'm not really there he thought his jilting would make me unwell recess was over when he rang the bell it was time for me to go back to hell. He was just a boy did you have to be so harsh? he just wanted to play he just wanted to run he was a boat in the sea he was my moon and my sun he pointed his hand at me and shot his gun. The other one out there didn't even count then he closed his eyes then he shut his mouth why he didn't come? yet he was so loud? please let me sleep I don't need him now. One day the almighty was walking my street he said: hey girl, would you like to come with me? "no thank you sir, she already did and look at the mess she is now in" Sometimes I trust sometimes I loose faith and I course the world and I course my fate and I don't feel loved and all seem fake and I start to drown in a shallow lake My girl brough life to where there was not she sings and dance I sing along the kitchen smells like the food on the stove what do you want to eat? the same as before. I know how to love I don't need to forgive I'm trying to mend what they broke in me what is done is done but I find relief knowing what I know giving what I give... I'm trying to break the walls around me I'm using my head I'm using a fists and little by little I'm starting to see a soft and dim light trying to get in. I carry a cane cuz I'm half blind some of us are born while some of us die my feelings & thoughts I don't need to hide I own nothing at all except, maybe, my life. Jessica