Who are you
Who are you?
When the lights are off and your heartbeat is dense,
Do you question your time or space or this everlasting sense?
Does your mind run wild with these blues and pinks, or these yellows and greens?
Or are you overcome with black?
Do you see yourself in tomorrow’s shoes or have you fallen into the gap?
We stop and go and stop and go,
But never once do any of us really stop or go.
You fall into your sheets like it’s the last place you’ll ever be,
The only place you never want to leave.
With you it was home,
But now it’s a sorrow of memory.
In the time it takes to fall asleep, it feels like eternity.
My dreams run wild with the presence of you and anomaly.
You have me so far into my head, you make my body weak.
During the day my eyes fall heavy, but in the night comes the anxiety.
I fight and fluster these feelings against gravity.
Its solid rock, I sink to the bottom of the sea.
I see the world carrying on without me, drowning in this history.
Moving on never seemed to be an option when our only promise was don’t give up on me.
I gave you every drop of me, from day one to day 1,460.
You held this light to my face, you burnt me.
I fought for your attention and you deserted me.
You gave no other option but to fall numb to this hurting.
I reminisce the nights we got tied in the sheets,
The sweet love that I thought was holy.
These thoughts have soured and feelings have fell,
Knowing of you with her, and her and her.
There’s nowhere for me to compare,
But to be the girl of thin air.
Copyright © Samantha Parlato | Year Posted 2017