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Where Do I Turn For Comfort

Where do I turn for comfort? Tell me, where can I go? Shame is all I find Whispers behind wisteria scowls masked in smiles sneak attack Caught unawares the "stares" Where do I turn for comfort? gossip on the grapevine souls dine on troubled mind everyone blind... too blind to be kind Where do I turn for comfort? No friend in the end None to defend No one hears the cries they have their "somewhere else" alibis ....... they smile and converse exchange pleasantries unaware of the pain synonymous of insane normalcy's delusion they play "Illusion" not knowing the state of their hearts how it smarts! they smile and belie their own little jibes More civilized less "in your face" They don't leave a trace Nothing to DISGRACE! they smile.... halo slipping wings charred heart seared I reel they don't feel the pain It's REAL... Where do I turn for comfort? When the comforter is gone... Where do I go? Surely, you know YOU… K N O W Eileen Manassian Disclaimer: This poem was written a FEW MONTHS BACK, when there was a painful episode here on the soup. I deleted it, but I find that these same situations come back again. Perhaps from now on every poem needs a disclaimer.....or is that only MY poems?

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Rhonda Johnson-Saunders

Date: 7/26/2015 8:15:00 PM

I'm saddened to read this, Eileen. I have no idea what happened while I was away, but I have a good idea without getting any details. Stay strong in your faith. People will always disappoint but He will never let you down. You're in my prayers xxx, Rhonda

Eileen Manassian
Date: 7/27/2015 12:24:00 PM

Best not to know, dear. It's Ok....Though I know it won't blow over....I am going to weather it. If someone has a misconception about you....he/she will believe what he/she wants to. Thank you for pointing my attention back to Him. I've let Him down time and again....It's ok. He will forgive. Hugs to you dear. Keep praying...I need it. Thanks

Jerry T Curtis

Date: 7/26/2015 7:13:00 AM

Hi my friend, I really can identify with this piece. I was involved in a Social Website for several years---saw many misunderstanding between good people, had to deal with some real miserable sorts, lost people I liked because of a missed placed word, or two, was offended many times, apologized many times, was hurt many times. I came from there to here, and found a better place. No one is innocent in word or action, but I alway endeavor to look passed the superficial and into the heart, GBless

Eileen Manassian
Date: 7/27/2015 12:25:00 PM

No....you are right. I know I've also been hurtful at times....retaliation or whatever the case may be. Thanks for taking the time to read this poem and to post such a though provoking post, Jerry. I really appreciate it. I will be to visit you soon.

Paul Callus

Date: 7/26/2015 4:54:00 AM

Hi Eileen! Been some time since I last commented; perhaps I too can hide behind a "somewhere else" alibi! Do not be hard on yourself; dwelling on the past will only reopen the wound. I am sorry that painful situations keep recurring. Turn to your close family, true friends, but most of all to Him who holds the key to our existence. Take a break, by all means, but running away will not solve anything. Hugs // paul

Eileen Manassian
Date: 7/27/2015 12:26:00 PM

No, I'm not going to run, Paul. I'm going to stand my ground. I know that some people won't like me....I just have to live with it as long as they keep their distance.....I will keep mine. Thanks for your visit. I've missed you.

Kp Nunez

Date: 7/26/2015 12:23:00 AM

Late this maybe, and I may not know of what really happened but this I'd like to share" In Him you'll find comfort, whenever you are in pain and so for you this I pray: May you rise from the hurt, from which you have lain; find joy and peace in your heart today. Take care of your heart, Eileen. hugs!

Eileen Manassian
Date: 7/27/2015 12:28:00 PM

Thank you for your words, Kim. It's never too late. I appreciate your sentiments here. All things work together for the good....I know there is a lesson here for me. I'm already learning it. Thank you for your kind visit.

Laura Breidenthal

Date: 7/25/2015 7:36:00 PM

I'm sorry for this deep pain Eileen. I wish I could take it all away and punch anyone who has judged you right where it hurts the most. I guess that wouldn't help anything, but I truly hope you find the peace and comfort you deserve. I know this was written a while back, though I know all too well this piece is relevant today and many days. Perhaps the good outweighs the bad, though I understand such negativity can weigh down the heart tremendously. Rest well, wonderful poet! Always, Laura

Eileen Manassian
Date: 7/27/2015 12:30:00 PM

You, Laura....never cease to amaze me. Honestly...You are so good and so kind. Thank you. I'm trying to cope with some situations. You know...there is a inner voice that tells you what do and not to...when I haven't listened, I've suffered for it. It's just that sometimes the heart is rebellious. Anyway. Thanks for the visit, dear. Hugs

James Horn

Date: 7/25/2015 4:45:00 PM

Turn to God and yourself and shut out the rest of the world. That is what I feel like doing sometimes along with turning off the TV. We have wisteria here and it is a cannibal. Jim Horn

Eileen Manassian
Date: 7/27/2015 12:30:00 PM

Thanks, Jim. You are kind to me. Kindness goes a long way. I appreciate the visit. Yes...He will never disappoint.

Richard Lamoureux

Date: 7/25/2015 10:04:00 AM

Unfortunately we can't stop other people from judging. I try to keep a balance by concentrating on the people that I care about and for the most part that seems to work. Sometimes however I succumb to emotions.

Eileen Manassian
Date: 7/27/2015 12:32:00 PM

I tried to stay away....I wrote emails trying to made amends....even though I was not at fault...but enough is enough, Richard. I will go back to stay away policy. The people who misjudge me...don't have to read my work or post comments. I won't block, but I will see how things go. Thanks, dear.

Eileen Manassian
Date: 7/25/2015 11:44:00 AM

Yes...Becca...you are right. Enough is enough. I'm tired. Do what you want.

Eileen Manassian
Date: 7/25/2015 10:20:00 AM

Thank you, Richard. I think I will give this all a rest for a while. I'm unable to write anymore. Thank you.

Richard Lamoureux

Date: 7/25/2015 9:12:00 AM

I can relate and there are times I wonder why I give so much to this place.

Eileen Manassian
Date: 7/25/2015 9:17:00 AM

I'm tired, Richard. I'm tired. This is God telling me to leave this place. How many times I've resisted....No, this is clear. This place is nothing but pain for me. I thought I found a place I can get out of my.....restrictions and be free. judgmental people won't let me be, Richard. I don't know what to do anymore. Thanks for the visit.

Jan Allison

Date: 7/25/2015 3:45:00 AM

so glad you re posted this Eileen - such a powerful write - I've been mocked and blocked but all it has done is make me stronger as I turn to my poetry to channel my emotions - stay strong:-) hugs jan xx

Eileen Manassian
Date: 7/25/2015 9:18:00 AM

Thanks, sweetie....Thanks. I've spent all my emotional energy on those blogs. Take care...thanks for the support. Sorry I can't respond. I'm ......drained. Love you

Deb Wilson

Date: 7/25/2015 2:44:00 AM

Eileen this makes me think of painful things being said about me...a lot of bullying when I was younger...Nowadays I've gotten a lot mouthier and I would just tell those bullies off ! love, Deb

Eileen Manassian
Date: 7/25/2015 9:20:00 AM

Yes, I contacted my cousin who is a lawyer about slander issues here. I got TPS to remove a blog that was slanderous...and comments from a second blog. It drains me, but it seems you need to get mouthy and mean to be heard. It's horrible. Thanks for the visit, Deb. Hugs and love