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Where Do I Turn For Comfort

Where do I turn for comfort?
Tell me, where can I go?
Shame is all I find
Whispers behind wisteria
scowls masked in smiles
sneak attack
Caught unawares
the "stares"

Where do I turn for comfort?
gossip on the grapevine
souls dine
on troubled mind
everyone blind...
too blind to be kind

Where do I turn for comfort?
No friend in the end
None to defend
No one hears the cries
they have their "somewhere else" alibis
.......
they smile
and converse
exchange pleasantries
unaware of the pain
synonymous of insane
normalcy's delusion
they play "Illusion"
not knowing
the state of their hearts
how it smarts!
they smile
and belie
their own little jibes
More civilized
less "in your face"
They don't leave a trace
Nothing to DISGRACE!
they smile....

halo slipping
wings charred
heart seared
I reel
they don't feel
the pain
It's REAL...

Where do I turn for comfort?
When the comforter is gone...
Where do I go?

Surely, you know
YOU…

K N O W


Eileen Manassian

Disclaimer: This poem was written a FEW MONTHS BACK, when there was a painful episode here on the soup. I deleted it, but I find that these same situations come back again. Perhaps from now on every poem needs a disclaimer.....or is that only MY poems?

Copyright © Eileen Manassian | Year Posted 2015

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Rhonda Johnson-Saunders Date: 7/26/2015 8:15:00 PM I'm saddened to read this, Eileen. I have no idea what happened while I was away, but I have a good idea without getting any details. Stay strong in your faith. People will always disappoint but He will never let you down. You're in my prayers xxx, Rhonda Login to Reply Eileen Manassian Date: 7/27/2015 12:24:00 PM Best not to know, dear. It's Ok....Though I know it won't blow over....I am going to weather it. If someone has a misconception about you....he/she will believe what he/she wants to. Thank you for pointing my attention back to Him. I've let Him down time and again....It's ok. He will forgive. Hugs to you dear. Keep praying...I need it. Thanks

Jerry T Curtis Date: 7/26/2015 7:13:00 AM Hi my friend, I really can identify with this piece. I was involved in a Social Website for several years---saw many misunderstanding between good people, had to deal with some real miserable sorts, lost people I liked because of a missed placed word, or two, was offended many times, apologized many times, was hurt many times. I came from there to here, and found a better place. No one is innocent in word or action, but I alway endeavor to look passed the superficial and into the heart, GBless Login to Reply Eileen Manassian Date: 7/27/2015 12:25:00 PM No....you are right. I know I've also been hurtful at times....retaliation or whatever the case may be. Thanks for taking the time to read this poem and to post such a though provoking post, Jerry. I really appreciate it. I will be to visit you soon.

Paul Callus Date: 7/26/2015 4:54:00 AM Hi Eileen! Been some time since I last commented; perhaps I too can hide behind a "somewhere else" alibi! Do not be hard on yourself; dwelling on the past will only reopen the wound. I am sorry that painful situations keep recurring. Turn to your close family, true friends, but most of all to Him who holds the key to our existence. Take a break, by all means, but running away will not solve anything. Hugs // paul Login to Reply Eileen Manassian Date: 7/27/2015 12:26:00 PM No, I'm not going to run, Paul. I'm going to stand my ground. I know that some people won't like me....I just have to live with it as long as they keep their distance.....I will keep mine. Thanks for your visit. I've missed you.

Kp Nunez Date: 7/26/2015 12:23:00 AM Late this maybe, and I may not know of what really happened but this I'd like to share" In Him you'll find comfort, whenever you are in pain and so for you this I pray: May you rise from the hurt, from which you have lain; find joy and peace in your heart today. Take care of your heart, Eileen. hugs! Login to Reply Eileen Manassian Date: 7/27/2015 12:28:00 PM Thank you for your words, Kim. It's never too late. I appreciate your sentiments here. All things work together for the good....I know there is a lesson here for me. I'm already learning it. Thank you for your kind visit.

Laura Breidenthal Date: 7/25/2015 7:36:00 PM I'm sorry for this deep pain Eileen. I wish I could take it all away and punch anyone who has judged you right where it hurts the most. I guess that wouldn't help anything, but I truly hope you find the peace and comfort you deserve. I know this was written a while back, though I know all too well this piece is relevant today and many days. Perhaps the good outweighs the bad, though I understand such negativity can weigh down the heart tremendously. Rest well, wonderful poet! Always, Laura Login to Reply Eileen Manassian Date: 7/27/2015 12:30:00 PM You, Laura....never cease to amaze me. Honestly...You are so good and so kind. Thank you. I'm trying to cope with some situations. You know...there is a inner voice that tells you what do and not to...when I haven't listened, I've suffered for it. It's just that sometimes the heart is rebellious. Anyway. Thanks for the visit, dear. Hugs

James Horn Date: 7/25/2015 4:45:00 PM Turn to God and yourself and shut out the rest of the world. That is what I feel like doing sometimes along with turning off the TV. We have wisteria here and it is a cannibal. Jim Horn Login to Reply Eileen Manassian Date: 7/27/2015 12:30:00 PM Thanks, Jim. You are kind to me. Kindness goes a long way. I appreciate the visit. Yes...He will never disappoint.

Richard Lamoureux Date: 7/25/2015 10:04:00 AM Unfortunately we can't stop other people from judging. I try to keep a balance by concentrating on the people that I care about and for the most part that seems to work. Sometimes however I succumb to emotions. Login to Reply Eileen Manassian Date: 7/27/2015 12:32:00 PM I tried to stay away....I wrote emails trying to made amends....even though I was not at fault...but enough is enough, Richard. I will go back to stay away policy. The people who misjudge me...don't have to read my work or post comments. I won't block, but I will see how things go. Thanks, dear. Eileen Manassian Date: 7/25/2015 11:44:00 AM Yes...Becca...you are right. Enough is enough. I'm tired. Do what you want. Eileen Manassian Date: 7/25/2015 10:20:00 AM Thank you, Richard. I think I will give this all a rest for a while. I'm unable to write anymore. Thank you.

Richard Lamoureux Date: 7/25/2015 9:12:00 AM I can relate and there are times I wonder why I give so much to this place. Login to Reply Eileen Manassian Date: 7/25/2015 9:17:00 AM I'm tired, Richard. I'm tired. This is God telling me to leave this place. How many times I've resisted....No, this is clear. This place is nothing but pain for me. I thought I found a place I can get out of my.....restrictions and be free. judgmental people won't let me be, Richard. I don't know what to do anymore. Thanks for the visit.

Jan Allison Date: 7/25/2015 3:45:00 AM so glad you re posted this Eileen - such a powerful write - I've been mocked and blocked but all it has done is make me stronger as I turn to my poetry to channel my emotions - stay strong:-) hugs jan xx Login to Reply Eileen Manassian Date: 7/25/2015 9:18:00 AM Thanks, sweetie....Thanks. I've spent all my emotional energy on those blogs. Take care...thanks for the support. Sorry I can't respond. I'm ......drained. Love you

Deb Wilson Date: 7/25/2015 2:44:00 AM Eileen this makes me think of painful things being said about me...a lot of bullying when I was younger...Nowadays I've gotten a lot mouthier and I would just tell those bullies off ! love, Deb Login to Reply Eileen Manassian Date: 7/25/2015 9:20:00 AM Yes, I contacted my cousin who is a lawyer about slander issues here. I got TPS to remove a blog that was slanderous...and comments from a second blog. It drains me, but it seems you need to get mouthy and mean to be heard. It's horrible. Thanks for the visit, Deb. Hugs and love