When Sorry Isnt Enough

I know I hurt you badly I was hurting too I never should have left But what’s done is done I would give anything to go back To hold you tight To never let go To tell you I love you once more I thought I was doing the right thing Even though it was completely wrong You got to experience what I never will For that, I am grateful You got to be a parent And now a grandparent I never will That emptiness is eternal When we reconnected I was over the moon Now I’m completely heartbroken But it’s not because of you I did it to myself Hoping you could forgive me If it painful to hear from me after 30 years That wasn’t my intention I had to reach out to you Maybe that was selfish of me My heart belongs to you My soul aches for you But I get it I understand Sometimes sorry isn’t enough And I have to live with that I wish you peace I won’t push anymore