When I think about it much more clearly now

When I would look at you in disgust and closed the door harsh, I know you would've just walked away. When I would scream at you in the face, even if it might be in public, I know you would not response. Because I won't give you enough time, and because you think it's better to leave it unsaid. Since something else must make me angry right? But I chose to let you in, even ket you sit on my favorite sit. Might give you tea and leave in an hour even though it's my house. Since your words don't linger. "What have you said yesterday again?" "What?" "Nothing'' ''good job" "nonesense" "Hm?" "Nothing" If I would answer in full capitals, I would've thrown myself in a river the next day. Since my words would leave you no air to breathe in. And your response, would be indifferent first leaving me stupid. Then you excuse yourself. Because I know, you know, that you were the cause.