When I Leave You

[A love poem for my wife of 43 years] 


When I leave you...
it won't be out of anger, 
it won't be out of jealousy, 
it won't be for another woman, 
and it won't be for freedom.

When I leave you, 
it won't be with grace--
it will be hard, hard to do.

I could try to fight it, 
but with what power?
Taken quick or slowly, 
I'll still be taken-- 
out of this world, 
out of your life....

Never out of your heart,  
I know,
I'm planted there, 
a Gibraltar till time's end.

Yet...yet I fear for the weight, 
the heaviness on you:
all the times you'll need a touch, 
or miss my breath
on the nape of your neck....

When the stars weep, 
when songbirds die, 
then, only then, 
will my love be left 
by your lonely side.

Do I yet know how much I love you?

Will my soul chant in mourning for you?
Will it long for this world, 
this world of night and day
only because you are still in it?
Copyright © | Year Posted 2014

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Mcintosh Avatar
July 5, 2023 at 1:35 AM
Congrats and God bless you, Love, Gina
Carber Avatar
July 6, 2023 at 10:22 AM
Thank you, Regina
Marcum Wong Avatar
February 11, 2022 at 5:43 PM
Your poem is so moving. I am happy to see it honored with First Place. Congratulations. I bought your book just now and I think it is great that the proceeds go to help the poor. I look forward to receiving your book and I hope this wonderful poem is in it? Happy Valentine’s Day. Blessings xxoo
Carber Avatar
February 12, 2022 at 12:42 PM
Thank you Connie, for both the good words and the kind act! God with God always...
Marcum Wong Avatar
February 11, 2022 at 8:17 PM
Yes, I see it is in your book. <3
Legros Kelley Avatar
February 8, 2022 at 11:41 PM
This is so beautiful, so touching, and such an amazing tribute to forever love. Congratulations on your First-Place win, God bless you! ~BJ
Carber Avatar
February 9, 2022 at 3:01 PM
Thank you, and go with God as well, my friend
Gauthier Avatar
December 11, 2020 at 1:31 PM
Wow ~ made me cry. Thank you ~ a definite FAVE.
Carber Avatar
December 12, 2020 at 9:50 AM
Thank you, Line
Evans Avatar
November 25, 2020 at 11:10 AM
Congratulations. Such a beautiful love poem.
Carber Avatar
November 26, 2020 at 10:41 AM
Thank you, Marilene
Ray Choudhury Avatar
November 24, 2020 at 5:47 PM
Congratulations on your win. Such a heartfelt and beautiful poem. ~ Mala
Carber Avatar
November 25, 2020 at 9:46 AM
Thank you, Mala
Strand Avatar
November 24, 2020 at 5:13 AM
LJ,f you would like to soupmail a link thereto I'll add it to the thank you blog to Line
Carber Avatar
November 24, 2020 at 1:56 PM
Thank you very much, Brian--will do so
Mcintosh Avatar
November 24, 2020 at 3:42 AM
Congrats on your win in Line's contest. God bless you with many more wonderful writes. I enjoyed this so much.
Carber Avatar
November 24, 2020 at 1:58 PM
Thank you Regina--and you're right--I have come to realize that all our creativity comes through our souls, ultimately from God. In my case, it just took 60 plus years!
La France Avatar
November 24, 2020 at 3:29 AM
LJ, congratulations in Line's, Have You Published with this beautiful poem, each line, each word is amazing _Constance
Carber Avatar
November 24, 2020 at 2:01 PM
Thank you, Constance--that is the strange thing about love-- none of us ever really know its depths....
Agustin Avatar
November 24, 2020 at 1:30 AM
Wow! Congrats! Thanks for sharing this. God bless you.
Carber Avatar
November 24, 2020 at 2:02 PM
As my alter ego, Nolo Segundo would say, 'Gracias, mi amiga, y vaya con Dios siempre!'
Mishra Avatar
June 1, 2020 at 4:05 PM
This is deep, heartfelt and an emotional expression of your feelings. I wish you show it to her. Congratulations on your win.
Carber Avatar
June 3, 2020 at 12:57 PM
Thank you, Aditi--someday perhaps
Adams Avatar
April 7, 2020 at 8:54 PM
beautiful poem, I do hope you share it with her... 40 years of love is a lifetime, many things shared, good and bad... congratulations on your win, enjoyed the read :)
Carber Avatar
April 8, 2020 at 11:54 AM
Thank you Sandra-- I'm still realizing how much this woman loves me--and who says there are no miracles!
Pandit Avatar
April 7, 2020 at 5:36 PM
Lovely, heartfelt--Congrats on your well deserved first place, L. J.
Carber Avatar
April 8, 2020 at 11:54 AM
Thank you, Vijay
Ibeh Avatar
January 19, 2020 at 10:09 AM
Aha! I remember this masterwork! It's a pleasure to revisit it! Congrats for the win, L.J.:-) Listen to me, Jeanne and SO already!...teeheehee
Carber Avatar
January 19, 2020 at 10:28 AM
Masterwork? My God, Ed, my head just blew up! Seriously though, thanks buddy-- it always is sweet to hear kindness from another poet.
One Avatar
January 19, 2020 at 7:30 AM
I think you should show her.. Congratulations on your placement in the contest..
Carber Avatar
January 19, 2020 at 9:26 AM
Perhaps Silent One, but it seems I've become something of a chicken**** in my old age...40 plus years doesn't make it any easier. Thank you for your kindness--vaya con Dios en 2020!
Chiri Avatar
December 31, 2019 at 10:50 AM
LJ congratulations on your top win!;)
Carber Avatar
December 31, 2019 at 6:58 PM
Thank you, Brenda--and happy 2020!
Mcgee Avatar
September 13, 2019 at 7:53 PM
a very romantic poem ...you should definitely show it to her. Congrats on your win.
Carber Avatar
September 14, 2019 at 8:58 AM
Thank you Jeanne...maybe someday
Hamilton Avatar
September 12, 2019 at 10:57 AM
Just wanted you to know L.J this poem inspired my latest song, maybe you would like it. I haven't showed my wife either.Thanks for the inspiration!
Hamilton Avatar
September 12, 2019 at 6:23 PM
Go to my page it's called Please say you'll try, right now it's just lyrics but the music is coming!
Carber Avatar
September 12, 2019 at 2:19 PM
What a lovely response John-- you made my day! [And where can I hear the song?]
Ibeh Avatar
September 11, 2019 at 3:42 PM
Show this to her, L.J.!:-) It will make her heart smile. You've written quite a beauty here. Such a superb romantic poem!
Carber Avatar
September 12, 2019 at 8:44 AM
Ah, alas, Edward, I still lack the courage to show her-- even though it was published in a lit mag (I hid it). There is something about love, in that the longer it goes on, the deeper it pulls one in....
Hamilton Avatar
September 11, 2019 at 12:15 PM
Congrats L.J on a winning poem, I see this has won a lot in contests, you know why...it's amazing! I wrote a similar one before but I like yours better, very touching!
Carber Avatar
September 12, 2019 at 8:42 AM
Thank you John, I really appreciate it!
Marc Avatar
September 11, 2019 at 9:02 AM
Such a great poem ~ congrats on you win L.J.!
Carber Avatar
September 12, 2019 at 8:41 AM
Thank you!
Gauthier Avatar
September 11, 2019 at 7:51 AM
Wow, LJ. A most deserving gold medal winner. Bravo. A FAVE for me.
Carber Avatar
September 11, 2019 at 8:37 AM
Thanks, Line
Lamoureux Avatar
September 11, 2019 at 7:42 AM
I remember this one from my contest. I still think it is an exceptional piece. Congrats on another win.
Carber Avatar
September 11, 2019 at 8:37 AM
Thank you Richard
Chiri Avatar
September 11, 2019 at 3:41 AM
Congrats on your win!;)
Carber Avatar
September 11, 2019 at 8:37 AM
Thanks Brenda
Agustin Avatar
September 11, 2019 at 12:55 AM
Wow! Congrats! Love-filled indeed... God bless you.
Carber Avatar
September 11, 2019 at 8:38 AM
Much, much appreciated, Beata
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