When God Calls Me Home

I would like to spill, What is harbored in my soul. I would like to say, Things that no one really knows. · I’d apologize to you, In a measurement beyond the stars. For not being there with you, Has left my soul this scar. · I’m reminded of the heartache, From that dreadful day. Of an ordinary time, When God took you away. · I would’ve quickly taken, The fate that you have faced. Than to see your children suffer, Savoring sorrows aftertaste. · If I had straps on my shoulders, Attached to an antique plow. You’d see deep ruts in the earth, From the weight I carry now. · I’m harvesting my burdens, In my open fields of pain. In the drought of happiness, Awaiting a smiling rain. · I’ve cultivated memories, From the 3 years you’ve been gone. Laying on glistening blades of grass, That I cried on sorrow’s lawn. · I reminisce on the tears, That only my heart knows. Waiting for bouquets of smiles, From the seeds I just now sowed. · I’m sorry you faced such madness, Without me along your side. And things could have been better, Perhaps you would have survived. · I’m sorry I didn’t call you, To distract your vivid mind. But I replay those what if’s, All the freakin’ time. · No one knows my heartache, Of not biding my goodbye. These are things I’ve harbored, Way down, deep inside. · It feels like you’d still be here, If I’d used my earthly power. I’m sorry for not distracting you, From your darkest hour. · This is a poem I had to write, To regain my inner control. And release my encumbers, To unburden my soul. · You will always be my best friend, A notion I’ll never condone. You know I’ll await your answer, When God calls me home. _________________________ For Christie and Sharon's "I'm Sorry" Contest
Copyright © | Year Posted 2009


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Date: 7/20/2009 3:47:00 AM
wow, this is a masterpiece, this is very touching. I love this.
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Date: 7/15/2009 4:57:00 PM
Raul - Congratulations on placing in Christie & Sharon’s contest – I apologize I wasn’t able to congratulate you until now, God Bless, MJ
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Date: 7/2/2009 12:11:00 PM
What an awesome, heartfelt poem. Wow! Congratulations on having is selected as one of the winners in the contest. Keep up the wonderful writing. Wishing you continued success. Karen
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Date: 7/1/2009 11:54:00 PM
You just dont quit! Congrats on your win..We should all have a friend like you. BG
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Date: 7/1/2009 11:39:00 PM
Congrats on your success in Sharon/Christie's contest Raul.Rgds Brian
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Date: 7/1/2009 5:55:00 PM
This poem hits the heart in the most deepest way...written so beautifully, Raul...well deserving a win in this contest. Congratulations on such a moving tribute
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Date: 6/14/2009 6:22:00 PM
This poem is very well written and flows beautifully. This poem is inspirational and touching! Awesome job! Thanks for taking the time to comment on my poetry and welcoming me to poetry soup! I really appreciate it!
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Date: 6/6/2009 5:58:00 AM
Raul...I started reading you when I saw you posted on the 100 best poems. You are magnificent! And this poem? What a story is there behind those words!! How much ALL of us would like to say these words to someone in our past...I would love to know what is behind this story. How sad and beautiful. You are a wonderful poet. These are words I wish I could have said to someone I love and lost. Patricia Langston-Moran
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Date: 6/4/2009 12:06:00 PM
a very very beautiful write
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Date: 6/3/2009 12:03:00 PM
Raul, This is simply Amazing......I am completely blown away..All those deep emotions bottled up inside you are pouring out all over the place. It is always painful soul searching coming to realizations about yourself and things that are still weighing on you from your past. We all make mistakes but it is never to late to say I'm sorry, even if that person never hears it, you have to make peace with it. God Bless you for having the courage to write this Awesome heartfelt poem, Always Tyesha
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Date: 6/2/2009 1:15:00 PM
Wow, that was so noble and such a way to say sorry....awsome @.@ every verse is so charged with feeling and bread flavors; thanks for sharing thins, it is beautiful, yet sad =(
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Date: 6/2/2009 11:59:00 AM
A painful soul searching poem. Filled with regret, honesty, sadness and mostly pain. I feel your heart aching as you poured out the burden in your soul. An awesome write. God Bless Phyl
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Date: 6/2/2009 7:14:00 AM
The honesty, and soul searching is painful, yet cleansing....you have written such a beautiful poem, Raul,.....as a reader, we can feel your heart pour out. God Bless...
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Date: 6/1/2009 7:33:00 PM
Raul...You have out done yourself on this one. I bet this was one of the hardest writes you have ever done. I can feel your heartache though your pen. Wonderful job, your friend Nate. You have soup mail.
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Date: 6/1/2009 4:47:00 PM
this is so beautiful and sad but honorable im glad you are able to touch your inner self very nice poem soup mail buddy
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Date: 6/1/2009 4:41:00 PM
A very beautiful poem you have written and i am sure you wish you well with this poem in the contest!
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Date: 6/1/2009 1:13:00 PM
Raul, this is one of the nicest and most wonderful poems i have read, you have encaptured a quite awesome write here my friend. Its proudly heading to my favs. All the very best in the contest > You have soup mail>James
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