When Anxious

When I feel anxious, threatened, endangered by mortal loss of an immortality never organically promised for perpetual pleasures of compassion, When I feel anxious aging toward permanent disability before my Wise Elder fruition returns to brain fog from which I came in embryonic form and flow and function, When I feel anxious about unmerited, or, even worse, merited infamy as my destiny rather than fame misfortune unflowering time, what do I need? what could I want? crave for pleasure purpose practice praxis just protocol performance peace persistence proper protocol procedures, and, perhaps, sacred organic meaning? When I feel anxious do I need deep verbal and non-verbal connections to those who share a home with still embodied me? Do I want reconnections with healthy neighbors co-cultivating an intentional conscious aware woke win/win curiously active healthy and safe green eco-political assertive yet unreactive community? resiliently resonant communion? co-passionate communication network? Does my own internal RightHemisphere need healthy and safe communion while my own activist LeftHemisphere wants to restore justice unions through nonviolent communication between multiculturally informed, presciently co-winning community mediators? Do I seek fellow hearty and healthy Me/We sighted and cited home-sited organizers? committed, yet playful, musicians, political prophetic poets, cooperative co-investors in healthy democracy Resilient resonant buoyant EarthTribe advocates combining party lines for win/win strategic thrival When I feel anxious do I also need to solitary write or sing and dance, or hum quietly alone with no witness but my own? When feeling anxious slowly turns to considering curious anticipation beyond self-contemptuous dark dread, must I always remain quite so shy? about brighter intimacy, hesitant to publish internal dialogue free of censoring potentially consensual fear about patriarchal capitalist investments in LeftHemisphere white privileged straight male dominance in unhealthy-unsafe apposition recreating viral conspiring theories of transcendently divine dogmas justifying inhumane from-above monotheistic punishments. When I feel free to anticipate our safe and healthy EarthTribe future, do I seek Polycultural Cooperative Investments? formed by Elder Indigenous Mind, panentheistically sacred memory co-empathically robust health speaking nonverbally felt widely resilient nutritious deep nurturing positive socio-psychological eco-political multiculturally convincing wealth.