They Say we go through Struggle to learn
Lessons to be told and Taught
But how much struggle do we go through?
Before we learn and How do we know?
I Love God, Don't get me wrong.
I have faith in him and myself,
But going through all this time and time again and again
I wonder why was I even born ??
When do I get a break?
I smile on the outside but I'm suffocating in the inside.
feeling my Heart beat raising
voices in my head telling me everything will be okay
but in reality its not
I wonder will they notice if I was to disappear?
would anyone be looking for me?
would they even care?
I know its a sin to commit suicide
But I'm just tired that its always on my mind
don't I deserve to be happy ?
for once I would like to have a happy ending like in the movies
I know it aint perfect but how much longer do I go on like this
Copyright © Mary Jane Randall | Year Posted 2017