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They Say we go through Struggle to learn Lessons to be told and Taught But how much struggle do we go through? Before we learn and How do we know? I Love God, Don't get me wrong. I have faith in him and myself, But going through all this time and time again and again I wonder why was I even born ?? When do I get a break? I smile on the outside but I'm suffocating in the inside. feeling my Heart beat raising voices in my head telling me everything will be okay but in reality its not I wonder will they notice if I was to disappear? would anyone be looking for me? would they even care? I know its a sin to commit suicide But I'm just tired that its always on my mind don't I deserve to be happy ? for once I would like to have a happy ending like in the movies I know it aint perfect but how much longer do I go on like this