What Is This Feeling I Feel

I can’t take this no more all the pain n agony I Feel Its as if im living a dream and nothings ever real I start thinking crazy thoughts and being Negative toward all This pain I only feel is nothing I Can call I feel so down n hurt much killing me inside Its like an irresistible affiliation that Makes me want run and hide The reason that I feel this way is Unexplanitory 2 u Cause u can’t really understand cause I cant so it makes 2 I stare at my walls n look up at the Ceiling at night wondering why I feel this way But nothing ever comes to mind its always Going to be another day and another Moment n time People kill me with there words sometimes By everything they do no matter if its Consumptions loving caring it’s your call Cause any and everything u want it to be it Doesn’t matter to me at all So I think I just might close my eyes and Wonder if my pain and affliction is worse Then the sound of thunder Cause hear me cry hear me roar im the one Who has to even the score I have to live with this each and everyday And now I wonder will my antagonizing Irresistible unexplanitory consumptions of Suffering in arrogant anguish anxiety Please tell me will it ever go away