What If ?

With my majority years long spent I oft look back at life searching out what if's; The decisions made at life's critical moments; What if I had left, instead of staying? I think of those I pushed from my life, And others that I simply allowed to leave; Some, I wanted to remain, While some chose to stay, some chose to go, And a few left and returned. It is these who cause my heart to rejoice Because it gives me a glimmer of hope That they saw something in me worth returning for? I understanding rehashing past decisions changes nothing; Could I have been a difference maker in life Had I chosen another path? Perhaps not, but God often uses ordinary people To accompluish unordinary things; The path I have traveled in life Has brought me to the spot in which I stand. I love, and am Loved, and that my friends, Makes me one thankful man.